XI'AN, China - The handlers of a smoking chimpanzee in a zoo in northwest China are trying to get her to kick the habit.
The 26-year-old female chimpanzee has been smoking for 15 years. Her mate died recently, which caused her to smoke even more.
Now, the chimp's keepers are worried about her health as a result of her intense smoking. So, they're trying to give her milk instead of cigarettes.
She started smoking years ago by picking up butts from tourists.
8/26/2005
8/09/2005
I Want a Girl Who Drives a 70's Muscle Car
Note:
If I could be anywhere right now, I would be sitting on the hood of a parked 70's muscle car, with a cute girl drinking beer, oh - and the car would be parked looking out from a wooded cliff, which the local kids call Make-Out Point, and we would be able to see the whole city below, and nobody would bother us in the gathering dusk, while we are proving why, in fact, they call it - Make-Out Point.
Note: Actual quote from the description of a book... lol sounds like my kind of book!
Btw watched the dukes of hazzard movie tonight, i dont care what the critics say it was a fricken awesome movie! They even had dudes from super troopers doing lines from it that was the fricken bomb! Lol. Not really true to the old series, but good for dudes that are like my age. I had to buy the cd and it aint bad. I definetly will get the movie. I tried to race a trans am after the movie, but he decided he didnt want to race me, although before this a babe in a impala or something raced me and i smoked her without even trying. hehe. Good times.
If I could be anywhere right now, I would be sitting on the hood of a parked 70's muscle car, with a cute girl drinking beer, oh - and the car would be parked looking out from a wooded cliff, which the local kids call Make-Out Point, and we would be able to see the whole city below, and nobody would bother us in the gathering dusk, while we are proving why, in fact, they call it - Make-Out Point.
Note: Actual quote from the description of a book... lol sounds like my kind of book!
Btw watched the dukes of hazzard movie tonight, i dont care what the critics say it was a fricken awesome movie! They even had dudes from super troopers doing lines from it that was the fricken bomb! Lol. Not really true to the old series, but good for dudes that are like my age. I had to buy the cd and it aint bad. I definetly will get the movie. I tried to race a trans am after the movie, but he decided he didnt want to race me, although before this a babe in a impala or something raced me and i smoked her without even trying. hehe. Good times.
8/07/2005
Funny Quote from a Website
"The purpose of this brief study is to offer a logical, practical, pragmatic proof of the existence of God from a purely scientific perspective. To do this, we are assuming that we exist, that there is reality, and that the matter of which we are made is real. If you do not believe that you exist, you have bigger problems than this study will entail and you will have to look elsewhere."
from http://www.doesgodexist.org/
from http://www.doesgodexist.org/
7/21/2005
6/26/2005
Super Trooper Double Take
This is one of the most hilarious things I have ever seen! Crystal had a head ache, and she wanted something to take some pills with. She looks in the fridge, but cant find anything so she grabs... THE SYRUP BOTTLE! I am like: "ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!!!" She giggles, and chugs some down puts the pills in her mouth and well I guess you cant really say that she washed them down more like she slitherd them down. It was so weird!
6/22/2005
The Gay of Ebay
I searched for a million dollar car, and one of my results was this...
Million Dollars on eBay Find million dollars items at low prices. With over 5 million items for sale every day, you'll find all kinds of unique things on eBay - the World's Online Marketplace.
www.ebay.com
How retarded!
Million Dollars on eBay Find million dollars items at low prices. With over 5 million items for sale every day, you'll find all kinds of unique things on eBay - the World's Online Marketplace.
www.ebay.com
How retarded!
The Miracle of the 3 Lions
By Anthony Mitchell
Associated Press
posted: 21 June, 2005
1:50pm ET
ADDIS ABABA, Ethiopia (AP) - Police say three lions rescued a 12-year-old girl kidnapped by men who wanted to force her into marriage, chasing off her abductors and guarding her until police and relatives tracked her down in a remote corner of Ethiopia.
The men had held the girl for seven days, repeatedly beating her, before the lions chased them away and guarded her for half a day before her family and police found her, Sgt. Wondimu Wedajo said Tuesday by telephone from the provincial capital of Bita Genet.
“They stood guard until we found her and then they just left her like a gift and went back into the forest,'' Wondimu said, adding he did not know whether the lions were male or female.
News of the June 9 rescue, which took place in a forest on the outskirts of Bita Genet, was slow to filter out from Kefa Zone in southwestern Ethiopia.
“If the lions had not come to her rescue then it could have been much worse. Often these young girls are raped and severely beaten to force them to accept the marriage,'' he said.
“Everyone in thinks this is some kind of miracle, because normally the lions would attack people,'' Wondimu said.
Associated Press
posted: 21 June, 2005
1:50pm ET
ADDIS ABABA, Ethiopia (AP) - Police say three lions rescued a 12-year-old girl kidnapped by men who wanted to force her into marriage, chasing off her abductors and guarding her until police and relatives tracked her down in a remote corner of Ethiopia.
The men had held the girl for seven days, repeatedly beating her, before the lions chased them away and guarded her for half a day before her family and police found her, Sgt. Wondimu Wedajo said Tuesday by telephone from the provincial capital of Bita Genet.
“They stood guard until we found her and then they just left her like a gift and went back into the forest,'' Wondimu said, adding he did not know whether the lions were male or female.
News of the June 9 rescue, which took place in a forest on the outskirts of Bita Genet, was slow to filter out from Kefa Zone in southwestern Ethiopia.
“If the lions had not come to her rescue then it could have been much worse. Often these young girls are raped and severely beaten to force them to accept the marriage,'' he said.
“Everyone in thinks this is some kind of miracle, because normally the lions would attack people,'' Wondimu said.
A rant about Compromise
Hello and welcome to my rant session. Todays preachiness will be directed at a topic that annoys me a little bit, but perhaps my annoyance is just misunderstanding, but I want to make my views on this subject clear.
Some one said they dont want to change, or their partner to change for the, and they are both should be their self. Now thats fine. But someone times I believe you should change in a relationship. Its called compromise. This doesnt mean you are selling yourself, it just means that if one partner finds something one is doing offensive, sometimes its not bad to change your habits. As in going to a strip club while the other partner doesnt want you to. I was just thinking about this, and the more I did the more, I was objective to the idea. Roy said there was this one wife who was happy when her hubby went to the strip club because he was then turned on for her when he got home... well guess what he was NOT turned on for her, I bet you he was fantasising about those slutty exotic dancer while they made love. Im not ranting at you know who specifically, just the practice in general. I dont think its a good thing to do really, because that makes your significant other feel like you dont find her attractive, and this is a perfect place to compromise. I have always promoted communication, and I think its always a good idea to talk about it. I guess I dont find porn and strip clubs bad for single people as long as that isnt taking the place of a real relationship. But if you are looking at other woman, on purpose to get turned on by them isnt that a little bit like cheating?
The whole point is sometimes change and compromise in a relationship is necessary, and it doesnt mean your selling yourself. Sometimes you even can adopt the views of the other partner, if you agree with them. But I felt a little like some people believed that I changed myself for Tammy, maybe I did change myself a little bit, but change isnt bad as long as I am not selling myself, and doing things that I feel are wrong. Sometimes its necessary, or a relationship cant work.
Say for instance sometimes one parnter wants to do something with their friends one day, alone. The other partner should empathize with them, and realize that sometimes their partner needs some time with their friends alone. If they cant feel how their partner is feeling, and accept that, and try to compromise with them can they truly care about the other one... or do they simple care about what their partner is providing them with?
I probably could use a disclamer, but I am sure nobody would listen to it, so I just want to say this is how I feel, and you should not get angry with me for what I think. Sometimes is not wrong to change how you think, and if people provided me with evidence on how I was wrong I probably would change. But anyway enuf babbling for now.
See ya on the flip side. hehe =)
Some one said they dont want to change, or their partner to change for the, and they are both should be their self. Now thats fine. But someone times I believe you should change in a relationship. Its called compromise. This doesnt mean you are selling yourself, it just means that if one partner finds something one is doing offensive, sometimes its not bad to change your habits. As in going to a strip club while the other partner doesnt want you to. I was just thinking about this, and the more I did the more, I was objective to the idea. Roy said there was this one wife who was happy when her hubby went to the strip club because he was then turned on for her when he got home... well guess what he was NOT turned on for her, I bet you he was fantasising about those slutty exotic dancer while they made love. Im not ranting at you know who specifically, just the practice in general. I dont think its a good thing to do really, because that makes your significant other feel like you dont find her attractive, and this is a perfect place to compromise. I have always promoted communication, and I think its always a good idea to talk about it. I guess I dont find porn and strip clubs bad for single people as long as that isnt taking the place of a real relationship. But if you are looking at other woman, on purpose to get turned on by them isnt that a little bit like cheating?
The whole point is sometimes change and compromise in a relationship is necessary, and it doesnt mean your selling yourself. Sometimes you even can adopt the views of the other partner, if you agree with them. But I felt a little like some people believed that I changed myself for Tammy, maybe I did change myself a little bit, but change isnt bad as long as I am not selling myself, and doing things that I feel are wrong. Sometimes its necessary, or a relationship cant work.
Say for instance sometimes one parnter wants to do something with their friends one day, alone. The other partner should empathize with them, and realize that sometimes their partner needs some time with their friends alone. If they cant feel how their partner is feeling, and accept that, and try to compromise with them can they truly care about the other one... or do they simple care about what their partner is providing them with?
I probably could use a disclamer, but I am sure nobody would listen to it, so I just want to say this is how I feel, and you should not get angry with me for what I think. Sometimes is not wrong to change how you think, and if people provided me with evidence on how I was wrong I probably would change. But anyway enuf babbling for now.
See ya on the flip side. hehe =)
6/13/2005
6/11/2005
And No 1 would put me 2gether Again
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I’m so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I’m not too proud to say
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can’t stop the tears from running down my face
Oh
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I’m so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I’m not too proud to say
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can’t stop the tears from running down my face
Oh
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you
6/07/2005
Love is More Powerful then Sex
Sex and romance may seem inextricably linked, but the human brain clearly distinguishes between the two, according to a new study. The upshot: Love is the more powerful emotion.
The results of brain scans speak to longstanding questions of whether the pursuit of love and sex are different emotional endeavors or whether romance is just warmed over sexual arousal.
"Our findings show that the brain areas activated when someone looks at a photo of their beloved only partially overlap with the brain regions associated with sexual arousal," said Arthur Aron of the State University of New York-Stony Brook. "Sex and romantic love involve quite different brain systems."
Romantic love is one of the most powerful of all human experiences," said study member Helen Fisher, an anthropologist at Rutgers University. "It is definitely more powerful than the sex drive."
Fisher said the study might suggest some of the physiology of stalking behavior. Other studies suggest that up to 40 percent of people who are rejected in love slip into clinical depression, she said.
"Rejected men and women in societies around the world sometimes kill themselves or someone else," Fisher said.
Animals, too
There are hints in the study that romance is not a uniquely human trait.
Some of the changes seen with mature romances were in regions of the brain also associated with pair-bonding in prairie voles. Other studies have found that expressions of attraction in a female prairie vole are linked to a 50 percent hike in dopamine activity in the brain region that corresponds to the location where human romance is processed.
"These and other data indicate that all mammals may feel attraction to specific partners, and that some of the same brain systems are involved," Fisher said.
So there you have it right from the very very tiny hearts and minds of "scientists."
Ever notice how they reduce the most incredibly beautiful and complex workings of our creator to nothing more then meaningless interations between chemicles, and other bullshit? Why do I always end up feeling depressed when I read science books? I cant shake the feeling that there is something fundamentally wrong with science. Science may have SOME basis in fact, but I think the majority of it destroys what the world is actually about. Enough babbling about "scientists" I gotta go to bed, maybe I will rant about them later, in a blog specifically about them, and their brain errors.
The results of brain scans speak to longstanding questions of whether the pursuit of love and sex are different emotional endeavors or whether romance is just warmed over sexual arousal.
"Our findings show that the brain areas activated when someone looks at a photo of their beloved only partially overlap with the brain regions associated with sexual arousal," said Arthur Aron of the State University of New York-Stony Brook. "Sex and romantic love involve quite different brain systems."
Romantic love is one of the most powerful of all human experiences," said study member Helen Fisher, an anthropologist at Rutgers University. "It is definitely more powerful than the sex drive."
Fisher said the study might suggest some of the physiology of stalking behavior. Other studies suggest that up to 40 percent of people who are rejected in love slip into clinical depression, she said.
"Rejected men and women in societies around the world sometimes kill themselves or someone else," Fisher said.
Animals, too
There are hints in the study that romance is not a uniquely human trait.
Some of the changes seen with mature romances were in regions of the brain also associated with pair-bonding in prairie voles. Other studies have found that expressions of attraction in a female prairie vole are linked to a 50 percent hike in dopamine activity in the brain region that corresponds to the location where human romance is processed.
"These and other data indicate that all mammals may feel attraction to specific partners, and that some of the same brain systems are involved," Fisher said.
So there you have it right from the very very tiny hearts and minds of "scientists."
Ever notice how they reduce the most incredibly beautiful and complex workings of our creator to nothing more then meaningless interations between chemicles, and other bullshit? Why do I always end up feeling depressed when I read science books? I cant shake the feeling that there is something fundamentally wrong with science. Science may have SOME basis in fact, but I think the majority of it destroys what the world is actually about. Enough babbling about "scientists" I gotta go to bed, maybe I will rant about them later, in a blog specifically about them, and their brain errors.
5/24/2005
The Bias of The Evolution Debate
Evolution has really been in the public eye as of late. Particularly in schools. In Georgia on textbooks that taught evolution they had a sticker that said: "This textbook contains material on evolution. Evolution is a theory, not a fact, regarding the origin of living things. This material should be approached with an open mind, studied carefully, and critically considered."
They had a judge remove it... That is so blatantly wrong it pissed me off to the extreme. Schools are one giant institution of misinformation. They just make kids believe blindly what they teach as fact. All the sticker is saying is approach this material with an open mind, and dont take it as fact, until you consider, and weigh the evidence. It should say that about the whole textbook in my view. Its hard to break out of the beliefs that society plants in us about the world. Since we have been taught certain things are "fact" for so long. They dont teach us how to think for our self. Just to believe what other people labeled scientist believe. I am not saying that "necessarily" evolution is false,(even though I believe it doesnt explain everything) but that parading it around as truth is bullshit. How can we in our arrogance believe we even know anything? I used to think we knew most everything, and things had worked perfectly. But in reality its crap. We dont KNOW hardly ANYTHING. Most of science is guesses. At Davisco (a local cheese plant), our precise machines break down all the time. And its probably rare to the extreme for one piece of cheese to come out exactly the same as the last, and I mean rare! There are so many factors like moisture, fat, protien, salt, texture, accidents, vat conditions, etc that change it. Its probably impossible. We dont even know 1 percent of the knowledge of the world. Do we know anything EXACTLY? No, and we probably never will, its all guesses and appoximations.
So I would say that the theory of evolution is just that, a theory. I think if they are going to teach evolution they should also present intelligent design as an alternative. Give kids some facts, and let them decide what is right instead of feeding them this propaganda bullshit about what is fact, and what is not. We are destroying our young kids minds, and not allowing them to think analytically about the evidence and draw their own conclusions. Instead we just blindly go to books, and take what we read in them as facts. Albert Einstein would be appalled. He never went with the mainstream, and he THOUGHT of his OWN ideas. He would not even be famous if he just took the works of scientists of his day as divine truths. He weighed all the evidence, and came to his own conclusion. Unlike our schools teach us how to do. By the way he believed in a higher power.
So if there is a seperation of church and state either remove evolution or start teaching that there COULD be an alternative. Because in my mind teaching evolution is unconstitutional. Its a religion. So, if you dont remove evolution then you should also present intelligent design, and let the children decide. What the scientific community is doing is wrong to the extreme. We call this prejudice. "An adverse judgment or opinion formed beforehand or without knowledge or examination of the facts." If we dont give kids knowledge of both sides, then we are acting in a manner that is no better then what Adolf Hitler did to Germany with his media misinformation, and propaganda.
If evolution isnt a religion I dont know what is. They have faith in their theorys, and pursue them with insane devotion, and basically gives a theory of how our world came to be, just like the bible. Their God is evolution, and their Jesus is Darwin. Simple as that. You can resist this paragraph if you want, but if you DARE to think about it, its true. Evolution is simply a different religion, and may be backed up with SOME scientific fact, but must be taken largely on faith because it does not explain everything. Contrary to what you have been taught by society.
Here is my logic. If evolution is such an undesutable fact then it should hold up to scutiny right? So why are scientists so afraid to subject their beliefs to even the REMOTEST POSSIBLITY of God? Maybe because deep down they know what is right, and what is wrong... Its called a Conscious... Where do you think that came from? God perhaps... Or was it Darwin?
They had a judge remove it... That is so blatantly wrong it pissed me off to the extreme. Schools are one giant institution of misinformation. They just make kids believe blindly what they teach as fact. All the sticker is saying is approach this material with an open mind, and dont take it as fact, until you consider, and weigh the evidence. It should say that about the whole textbook in my view. Its hard to break out of the beliefs that society plants in us about the world. Since we have been taught certain things are "fact" for so long. They dont teach us how to think for our self. Just to believe what other people labeled scientist believe. I am not saying that "necessarily" evolution is false,(even though I believe it doesnt explain everything) but that parading it around as truth is bullshit. How can we in our arrogance believe we even know anything? I used to think we knew most everything, and things had worked perfectly. But in reality its crap. We dont KNOW hardly ANYTHING. Most of science is guesses. At Davisco (a local cheese plant), our precise machines break down all the time. And its probably rare to the extreme for one piece of cheese to come out exactly the same as the last, and I mean rare! There are so many factors like moisture, fat, protien, salt, texture, accidents, vat conditions, etc that change it. Its probably impossible. We dont even know 1 percent of the knowledge of the world. Do we know anything EXACTLY? No, and we probably never will, its all guesses and appoximations.
So I would say that the theory of evolution is just that, a theory. I think if they are going to teach evolution they should also present intelligent design as an alternative. Give kids some facts, and let them decide what is right instead of feeding them this propaganda bullshit about what is fact, and what is not. We are destroying our young kids minds, and not allowing them to think analytically about the evidence and draw their own conclusions. Instead we just blindly go to books, and take what we read in them as facts. Albert Einstein would be appalled. He never went with the mainstream, and he THOUGHT of his OWN ideas. He would not even be famous if he just took the works of scientists of his day as divine truths. He weighed all the evidence, and came to his own conclusion. Unlike our schools teach us how to do. By the way he believed in a higher power.
So if there is a seperation of church and state either remove evolution or start teaching that there COULD be an alternative. Because in my mind teaching evolution is unconstitutional. Its a religion. So, if you dont remove evolution then you should also present intelligent design, and let the children decide. What the scientific community is doing is wrong to the extreme. We call this prejudice. "An adverse judgment or opinion formed beforehand or without knowledge or examination of the facts." If we dont give kids knowledge of both sides, then we are acting in a manner that is no better then what Adolf Hitler did to Germany with his media misinformation, and propaganda.
If evolution isnt a religion I dont know what is. They have faith in their theorys, and pursue them with insane devotion, and basically gives a theory of how our world came to be, just like the bible. Their God is evolution, and their Jesus is Darwin. Simple as that. You can resist this paragraph if you want, but if you DARE to think about it, its true. Evolution is simply a different religion, and may be backed up with SOME scientific fact, but must be taken largely on faith because it does not explain everything. Contrary to what you have been taught by society.
Here is my logic. If evolution is such an undesutable fact then it should hold up to scutiny right? So why are scientists so afraid to subject their beliefs to even the REMOTEST POSSIBLITY of God? Maybe because deep down they know what is right, and what is wrong... Its called a Conscious... Where do you think that came from? God perhaps... Or was it Darwin?
5/16/2005
5/14/2005
Dedicated to Nichole
This blog is dedicated to Nichole Bussard. July 5, 1988 - May 9, 2005.
NICHOLE BUSSARD was my friend. Maybe I wasn't as close to her as some others, but we had alot of good times. I will never forget the summer we had with Tammy, Nikki, and me. I will never forget those nights driving around in watertown aimlessly, and just having fun. Nikki has taught me to love life, and to be a good friend. Tammy and I were planning to do something with all three of us, someday soon. Reliving old times I guess. I have learned we must should validate our friends we have now, and never take them for granted, because what does one man have who has everything in the world but friends? Nothing. We can never know when the friends we take for granted are gone. I will miss you, Nikki and I believe that someday we will all be together, and be living the good times again. Until then, I guess we must never forget the past, but should try to live in the present, because this is the time that matters. Right now. So Nikki here is to you!
Pippin "I didn't think it would end this way"
Gandalf "End? No the journey doesn't end here.
Death is just another path, one that we all must take.
The grey rain curtain of this world rolls back,
and all turns to silver glass...and then you see it..."
Pippin- "What Gandalf? See what"
Gandalf- "White shores...and beyond,
a far green country, under a swift sunrise."
Pippin- "Well, that doesn't sound so bad."
Gandalf- "No, no it isn't"
-May the wind under your wings bear you where the sun sails and the moon walks.
NICHOLE BUSSARD was my friend. Maybe I wasn't as close to her as some others, but we had alot of good times. I will never forget the summer we had with Tammy, Nikki, and me. I will never forget those nights driving around in watertown aimlessly, and just having fun. Nikki has taught me to love life, and to be a good friend. Tammy and I were planning to do something with all three of us, someday soon. Reliving old times I guess. I have learned we must should validate our friends we have now, and never take them for granted, because what does one man have who has everything in the world but friends? Nothing. We can never know when the friends we take for granted are gone. I will miss you, Nikki and I believe that someday we will all be together, and be living the good times again. Until then, I guess we must never forget the past, but should try to live in the present, because this is the time that matters. Right now. So Nikki here is to you!
Pippin "I didn't think it would end this way"
Gandalf "End? No the journey doesn't end here.
Death is just another path, one that we all must take.
The grey rain curtain of this world rolls back,
and all turns to silver glass...and then you see it..."
Pippin- "What Gandalf? See what"
Gandalf- "White shores...and beyond,
a far green country, under a swift sunrise."
Pippin- "Well, that doesn't sound so bad."
Gandalf- "No, no it isn't"
-May the wind under your wings bear you where the sun sails and the moon walks.
5/09/2005
God Doesn't Believe In Atheists
I am not trying to offend anyone, but this quote really moved me. It is from a book called: "God Doesn't Believe In Atheists." It is one of the best books I have ever read, and makes perfect logical, and rational sense, that the bible is true. Anyway on to my quote:
Dwight D. Eisenhower said,
It takes no brain to be an atheist. Any stupid person can deny the existence of a supernatural power because man's physical sense cannot detect it. But there cannot be ignored the influence of conscience, the respect we feel for the Moral Law, the mystery of first life... or the marvelous order in which the universe moves about us on this earth. All these evidence the handiwork of the beneficent Deity... That Deity is the God of the Bible and of Jesus Christ, His Son.
_____________
Now If you do not believe in God, because you think there is no proof think again. There is proof, and if you are a reasonable person, and read this book, I believe that you will seriously question your long held beliefs. I would be happy to loan this book out, to anyone interested... (that is in close proximity to me. As in 50 miles)
Dwight D. Eisenhower said,
It takes no brain to be an atheist. Any stupid person can deny the existence of a supernatural power because man's physical sense cannot detect it. But there cannot be ignored the influence of conscience, the respect we feel for the Moral Law, the mystery of first life... or the marvelous order in which the universe moves about us on this earth. All these evidence the handiwork of the beneficent Deity... That Deity is the God of the Bible and of Jesus Christ, His Son.
_____________
Now If you do not believe in God, because you think there is no proof think again. There is proof, and if you are a reasonable person, and read this book, I believe that you will seriously question your long held beliefs. I would be happy to loan this book out, to anyone interested... (that is in close proximity to me. As in 50 miles)
5/05/2005
Miracles Do Happen
The Associated Press
Updated: 1:30 p.m. ET May 3, 2005ORCHARD PARK, N.Y. -
Nearly 9½ years after a firefighter was left brain-damaged and mostly mute during a 1995 roof collapse, he did something that shocked his family and doctors: He asked for his wife.
Staff members of the nursing home where Donald Herbert has lived for more than seven years raced to get Linda Herbert on the telephone.
It was the first of many conversations the patient had with his wife, four sons and other family and friends Saturday during a 14-hour stretch, Herbert’s uncle Simon Manka said.
“How long have I been away?” Herbert asked.
“We told him almost 10 years,” the uncle said. “He thought it was only three months.”
Herbert, who will turn 44 Saturday, was fighting a house fire Dec. 29, 1995, when the roof collapsed, burying him under debris. After going without air for several minutes, Herbert was comatose for 2 1/2 months and has undergone therapy ever since.
Seeking privacy
News accounts in the days and years after his injury describe Herbert as blind and with little, if any, memory. Video shows him receiving physical therapy but apparently unable to communicate and with little awareness of his surroundings.
Manka declined Monday to discuss his nephew’s current condition, or whether the apparent progress was continuing this week. The family was seeking privacy while doctors evaluated Herbert, he said.
“He’s resting comfortably,” the uncle said.
As word of Herbert’s progress spread, a steady stream of visitors arrived at the Father Baker Manor nursing home in this Buffalo suburb.
“He stayed up ’til early morning talking with his boys and catching up on what they’ve been doing over the last several years,” firefighter Anthony Liberatore told WIVB-TV.
Herbert’s sons were 14, 13, 11 and 3 when he was injured.
Staff members at the nursing facility recognized the change in Herbert, Manka said, when they heard him speaking and “making specific requests.”
“The word of the day was ‘amazing,”’ he said.
Updated: 1:30 p.m. ET May 3, 2005ORCHARD PARK, N.Y. -
Nearly 9½ years after a firefighter was left brain-damaged and mostly mute during a 1995 roof collapse, he did something that shocked his family and doctors: He asked for his wife.
Staff members of the nursing home where Donald Herbert has lived for more than seven years raced to get Linda Herbert on the telephone.
It was the first of many conversations the patient had with his wife, four sons and other family and friends Saturday during a 14-hour stretch, Herbert’s uncle Simon Manka said.
“How long have I been away?” Herbert asked.
“We told him almost 10 years,” the uncle said. “He thought it was only three months.”
Herbert, who will turn 44 Saturday, was fighting a house fire Dec. 29, 1995, when the roof collapsed, burying him under debris. After going without air for several minutes, Herbert was comatose for 2 1/2 months and has undergone therapy ever since.
Seeking privacy
News accounts in the days and years after his injury describe Herbert as blind and with little, if any, memory. Video shows him receiving physical therapy but apparently unable to communicate and with little awareness of his surroundings.
Manka declined Monday to discuss his nephew’s current condition, or whether the apparent progress was continuing this week. The family was seeking privacy while doctors evaluated Herbert, he said.
“He’s resting comfortably,” the uncle said.
As word of Herbert’s progress spread, a steady stream of visitors arrived at the Father Baker Manor nursing home in this Buffalo suburb.
“He stayed up ’til early morning talking with his boys and catching up on what they’ve been doing over the last several years,” firefighter Anthony Liberatore told WIVB-TV.
Herbert’s sons were 14, 13, 11 and 3 when he was injured.
Staff members at the nursing facility recognized the change in Herbert, Manka said, when they heard him speaking and “making specific requests.”
“The word of the day was ‘amazing,”’ he said.
5/04/2005
My Rusty Chevrolet
Dashing through the snow in my rusty Chevrolet
Down the road I go, sliding all the way.
I need new piston rings, I need some new snow tires;
My car is held together by a piece of chicken wire.
Chorus:
Rust and smoke, the heater's broke, the door just blew away.
I light a match to see the dash and then I start to pray.
The frame is bent, the heater went, the radio it's Ok.
Oh what fun it is to drive this rusty Chevrolet.
I went to the IGA to get some Christmas cheer.
I just passed my left front tire and it's getting hard to steer.
Skidding down the road, spinning like a top.
I had to drag my Timberlands to get the car to stop.
Chorus
Bouncing through the snowdrifts in a big blue cloud of smoke.
People laugh as I drive by; I wonder what's the joke?
I got to get to town to pick up the lay-away
'Cause Santa Clause is coming soon in his big ol' rusty sleigh
Down the road I go, sliding all the way.
I need new piston rings, I need some new snow tires;
My car is held together by a piece of chicken wire.
Chorus:
Rust and smoke, the heater's broke, the door just blew away.
I light a match to see the dash and then I start to pray.
The frame is bent, the heater went, the radio it's Ok.
Oh what fun it is to drive this rusty Chevrolet.
I went to the IGA to get some Christmas cheer.
I just passed my left front tire and it's getting hard to steer.
Skidding down the road, spinning like a top.
I had to drag my Timberlands to get the car to stop.
Chorus
Bouncing through the snowdrifts in a big blue cloud of smoke.
People laugh as I drive by; I wonder what's the joke?
I got to get to town to pick up the lay-away
'Cause Santa Clause is coming soon in his big ol' rusty sleigh
5/03/2005
Joy in Little Things
From the website www.truth1.org
"Some people have low thresholds for excitement. That is to say, nearly anything excites them or gets them high. They are easy to please or excite. Watch a child some time. Small children are very easy to entertain or please. Small things are very entertaining or amusing. They can be happy just getting pushed on a swing or some silly behavior you might engage in. And their expressions are so much more extreme, too. They really get excited or laugh, squeal, scream, yell, cry, etc."
"Adults become more reserved, more muted, more deadened. They are much harder to excite or get expressions from. They are not as easy to please. It takes a lot more to excite or please them and they will not react as strongly as kids do. They have what we might call a much higher threshold for excitement."
"I think part of the problem is that as we grow, we allow the world to hurt us and kill our joy of small simple things. Before we realize it, we start demanding the greatest of expectations for everything. (Tyler- This is releveant in our society today because we have so many forms of entertainment... TV, Computer, Books, etc. that we forget how to entertain ourselves, and we adopt the belief that all adults should act this way... HOW BORING DONT LET SOCIETY STEAL YOUR FUN!)
"A get together is not enough any more. Eating out is not big enough. Sex with our partners is not enough. Entertaining and playing with chidlren and seeing their joy is not enough. We might get a new car but the joy soon wears off. No matter what we do or what we buy or get, we are never happy; it is never enough. We have a definite problem, don't we?"
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Solution:
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This is me speaking again. Ok, so anyway, as we get more mature, we feel like we have to act a certain way... From my experience adults are SO boring sometimes. Have you ever watched them at a get together? They just sit there, and talk about boring things like work, the weather, school, whatever. Sometimes they play card games. Honestly, how boring... where did the magic go? We have conformed to society's expectations, and forgot how to entertain ourselves. I think we should sometimes act a little goofy, and try to retain, the mystery of life, and the magic of our childhood. Our hopes and dreams, our desires for the future. Whatever. We should not allow ourselves to be *dullitized*(TM) hehe. Joy can be easily found in every day life, you just got to look for it. This guy at work Tim is so anal about stuff being clean and perfect, and stuff has to be done a certain way. But then at the same time he is a goofy nutcase who is pretty weird. Hes still sometimes acts like a kid, and still pulls of being a mature, responsible adult and is 32 years old! I mean if TIM can do it we can do it right? HEH why not!
Here is a simple exercise I made up for you, go outside run around your house once, and scream where are the mutated badgers from space?!!! ARHHHH THERE IN MY PAAAAAAANTS! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH!!!!!
If anyone you know ask you what you are doing say you wouldn't understand you have ben Dullitized! And walk away laughing! Enjoy.
"Some people have low thresholds for excitement. That is to say, nearly anything excites them or gets them high. They are easy to please or excite. Watch a child some time. Small children are very easy to entertain or please. Small things are very entertaining or amusing. They can be happy just getting pushed on a swing or some silly behavior you might engage in. And their expressions are so much more extreme, too. They really get excited or laugh, squeal, scream, yell, cry, etc."
"Adults become more reserved, more muted, more deadened. They are much harder to excite or get expressions from. They are not as easy to please. It takes a lot more to excite or please them and they will not react as strongly as kids do. They have what we might call a much higher threshold for excitement."
"I think part of the problem is that as we grow, we allow the world to hurt us and kill our joy of small simple things. Before we realize it, we start demanding the greatest of expectations for everything. (Tyler- This is releveant in our society today because we have so many forms of entertainment... TV, Computer, Books, etc. that we forget how to entertain ourselves, and we adopt the belief that all adults should act this way... HOW BORING DONT LET SOCIETY STEAL YOUR FUN!)
"A get together is not enough any more. Eating out is not big enough. Sex with our partners is not enough. Entertaining and playing with chidlren and seeing their joy is not enough. We might get a new car but the joy soon wears off. No matter what we do or what we buy or get, we are never happy; it is never enough. We have a definite problem, don't we?"
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Solution:
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This is me speaking again. Ok, so anyway, as we get more mature, we feel like we have to act a certain way... From my experience adults are SO boring sometimes. Have you ever watched them at a get together? They just sit there, and talk about boring things like work, the weather, school, whatever. Sometimes they play card games. Honestly, how boring... where did the magic go? We have conformed to society's expectations, and forgot how to entertain ourselves. I think we should sometimes act a little goofy, and try to retain, the mystery of life, and the magic of our childhood. Our hopes and dreams, our desires for the future. Whatever. We should not allow ourselves to be *dullitized*(TM) hehe. Joy can be easily found in every day life, you just got to look for it. This guy at work Tim is so anal about stuff being clean and perfect, and stuff has to be done a certain way. But then at the same time he is a goofy nutcase who is pretty weird. Hes still sometimes acts like a kid, and still pulls of being a mature, responsible adult and is 32 years old! I mean if TIM can do it we can do it right? HEH why not!
Here is a simple exercise I made up for you, go outside run around your house once, and scream where are the mutated badgers from space?!!! ARHHHH THERE IN MY PAAAAAAANTS! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH!!!!!
If anyone you know ask you what you are doing say you wouldn't understand you have ben Dullitized! And walk away laughing! Enjoy.
5/02/2005
I Can Really Bounce!
Well, guess what today was...? Monday,at work... means I gotta clean broiler when I close at Zkota. Usually one my least favorite activities period! But guess what? I was happy... no scrath that estatic! I am back to my old self again! The Tyler that Tammy used to know when she first met me, except this is the new and improved version. Why? Well, I dunno, I just kinda employed my own little philosophy I have developed to be happy basically all the time. And it worked. I can't really explain it, but I just don't focus on negative things, I just am entertaining myself. Except today I wasn't withdrawn. I talked to everyone at work alot. Except this time I revealed my true self to them. At first I was just a little hesitant, and I found myself being SCARED to be happy again! Can you believe that?! But I got over it, and I flourished. I havent been this happy since probably last year at this time. I guess what people say is true, true happiness is found within ourselves, and not from without. (don't get me wrong alot of times you can get really happy from external things, but you cant solely rely on them to be happy, because things are not always perfect.) When we closed we listened to my new burnt cd... Enya, LOTR, and Conan the Barbarian. Three out of the four people there didn't mind it. But I loved it. I had a great time AND I WAS CLOSING! Imagine if I was doing something more stimulating. I believe I have found one of the answers to lifes biggest questions. How to be happy. Its hard to explain, but I will try to outline some of my philosophy for you here:
1. Don't really WORRY about the past or the future. (think about them, and plan ahead, and learn from the past, but dont get worked up about what mighta been, or be scared about tomorrow)
2. Totally be yourself, and dont change for other people just because you want to fit in... even if they are your best friend, and you are afraid of them not liking you.
3. Don't Dwell on negative things, bad things happen in life, but so do good things. But its HARD for good things to happen if you are dwelling on the bad, then you fail to notice the positive.
4. You can be happy RIGHT NOW! It doesnt really matter if good things are happening or not.
5. Dont be afraid to be happy.
6. Open up to other people, and they will open up to you as well.
7. Sometimes you can't pick your circumstance, but you can pick how you react to them.
8. There is a God, and he loves all of us.
9. Material things don't make people TRULY happy. (with some exceptions, but usually its short lived, and you move on to the next thing you want, and keep doing that)
10. Everything isn't always perfect, but it doesn't have to be perfect or even close for you to have a good time.
11. It is very important that you think! and be proactive about yourself and life. So you can change, and adapt for the better.
These are really only for me, I would suggest you making your own way to be happy, and really examine yourself, your feelings, thoughts, and be honest about them. If you understand yourself, its easier to make changes and respond to certain situations. Good Luck!
1. Don't really WORRY about the past or the future. (think about them, and plan ahead, and learn from the past, but dont get worked up about what mighta been, or be scared about tomorrow)
2. Totally be yourself, and dont change for other people just because you want to fit in... even if they are your best friend, and you are afraid of them not liking you.
3. Don't Dwell on negative things, bad things happen in life, but so do good things. But its HARD for good things to happen if you are dwelling on the bad, then you fail to notice the positive.
4. You can be happy RIGHT NOW! It doesnt really matter if good things are happening or not.
5. Dont be afraid to be happy.
6. Open up to other people, and they will open up to you as well.
7. Sometimes you can't pick your circumstance, but you can pick how you react to them.
8. There is a God, and he loves all of us.
9. Material things don't make people TRULY happy. (with some exceptions, but usually its short lived, and you move on to the next thing you want, and keep doing that)
10. Everything isn't always perfect, but it doesn't have to be perfect or even close for you to have a good time.
11. It is very important that you think! and be proactive about yourself and life. So you can change, and adapt for the better.
These are really only for me, I would suggest you making your own way to be happy, and really examine yourself, your feelings, thoughts, and be honest about them. If you understand yourself, its easier to make changes and respond to certain situations. Good Luck!
Tigger Bounces Again
Lately I have been posting like CRAZY! Due to the fact that my whole life has changed. And I have alot on my mind. I have been going through a very difficult time. Well thats an understatement. Don't worry, I will not dwell on the bad for to long. I apologize I am so long winded, but I read Stephen King! HAHA!
Recently, I was suffering so much, I didn't know how to make the pain go away, I was dwelling on the hurt so much, that at times, I thought I might die. I was so overwhelmed by my sorrow, that I even got drunk... when I was drunk, I felt very happy, but I could tell my happiness wasn't real. I regret I did that, and don't plan on doing it again. I don't believe drinking in moderation is bad, but I believe drunkenness is evil. I know my mother's dad used to be an alcoholic, and it led only to heartbreak, and more sorrow. I didnt do that again, but I kept going into a downward spiral, and the sorrow got so bad, I was literally going insane... Tammy told me not to focus on the pain, this helped me somewhat. I stopped listening to my sad music, and thinking for what happened and that my future would be so empty.
Another thing that has helped me was me meeting a new friend on msn about a week ago. She helped me get through the pain as well. She apparently goes to the same school Darci goes to. And she has this totally positive outlook. I guess she taught me its better to look on the good things and not the bad.
I have realize that people can tell you only so much, and even if their words do not fall on deaf ears they can only give you directions for the path... you have to find it. Then you have to walk it. Sorry, sometimes its just easier for me to understand things abstractly then come right out and say it.
But I guess it really didn't click until today. I burnt a CD with the Lord of the Rings Soundtrack, Conan the Barbarian Soundtrack, and Enya all on it. I had to give my final paper for this one class, and when I got home, I just sat in my car, with the window down, a slight breeze coming in, and the sun streaming threw the trees. Enya really gave helped the transition of my life. I have stopped playing Computer games, mostly stopped watching TV, and have not read a book lately. So I am like... what else is there to do without these things?! I realized entertainment was running my life, and I realized so was my reliance on a girl in my life. I realized, that I wasn't even living anymore; I was just getting sort of entertained. As I was listening to the slow, and slightly sad music of Enya, I realized that I also was trying to rush threw everything. I just need some time to relax, and get back to myself, because I wasn't really living. I am not sure if you understand me, but at that point in time, I realized that I could live life without all the usual entertainment, and I would be ok if I didn't have a girlfriend for a while. I want to try to get back to what I love, and live a little for myself instead of for short lived desires. I want to get back to nature, write some poetry, read some books, maybe write a book, draw, take more walks, and just take life slower. I realized that I am ok, and the world is big and beautiful, and I am eager to live, and hopefully not afraid anymore.
During my time of sorrow, I also came to realize, that I had lost God, and wasn’t living my life according to his will. I had created my own God, which would never let his people get sad, or anything bad happen to them. I was angry at him for letting this happen to me, and just kind of forgot about him. I now realized that he cares for me, and wants me to learn. I have accepted him back in my life, and now he is a big part of it. Threw my sorrow, I sought out God, and throw my faith, he has allowed me to cope with this, and understand.
I guess what I am saying, is that this break up was in itself so hard, and so sad, but it put my whole life in perspective, and helped me realized that I was living it wrong. It helped me change for the better, and realize that my heart will go on, and I can exist by myself, and helped me find God, and have hope once again. It sounds odd, but thank you Tammy. Thank you for everything you have given me, and taught. It means everything to me.
Who knows, maybe along the way something beautiful will happen to me, I wont say what, because I don't know, that’s the beauty of it. Until then, TIGGER BOUNCES AGAIN!
Recently, I was suffering so much, I didn't know how to make the pain go away, I was dwelling on the hurt so much, that at times, I thought I might die. I was so overwhelmed by my sorrow, that I even got drunk... when I was drunk, I felt very happy, but I could tell my happiness wasn't real. I regret I did that, and don't plan on doing it again. I don't believe drinking in moderation is bad, but I believe drunkenness is evil. I know my mother's dad used to be an alcoholic, and it led only to heartbreak, and more sorrow. I didnt do that again, but I kept going into a downward spiral, and the sorrow got so bad, I was literally going insane... Tammy told me not to focus on the pain, this helped me somewhat. I stopped listening to my sad music, and thinking for what happened and that my future would be so empty.
Another thing that has helped me was me meeting a new friend on msn about a week ago. She helped me get through the pain as well. She apparently goes to the same school Darci goes to. And she has this totally positive outlook. I guess she taught me its better to look on the good things and not the bad.
I have realize that people can tell you only so much, and even if their words do not fall on deaf ears they can only give you directions for the path... you have to find it. Then you have to walk it. Sorry, sometimes its just easier for me to understand things abstractly then come right out and say it.
But I guess it really didn't click until today. I burnt a CD with the Lord of the Rings Soundtrack, Conan the Barbarian Soundtrack, and Enya all on it. I had to give my final paper for this one class, and when I got home, I just sat in my car, with the window down, a slight breeze coming in, and the sun streaming threw the trees. Enya really gave helped the transition of my life. I have stopped playing Computer games, mostly stopped watching TV, and have not read a book lately. So I am like... what else is there to do without these things?! I realized entertainment was running my life, and I realized so was my reliance on a girl in my life. I realized, that I wasn't even living anymore; I was just getting sort of entertained. As I was listening to the slow, and slightly sad music of Enya, I realized that I also was trying to rush threw everything. I just need some time to relax, and get back to myself, because I wasn't really living. I am not sure if you understand me, but at that point in time, I realized that I could live life without all the usual entertainment, and I would be ok if I didn't have a girlfriend for a while. I want to try to get back to what I love, and live a little for myself instead of for short lived desires. I want to get back to nature, write some poetry, read some books, maybe write a book, draw, take more walks, and just take life slower. I realized that I am ok, and the world is big and beautiful, and I am eager to live, and hopefully not afraid anymore.
During my time of sorrow, I also came to realize, that I had lost God, and wasn’t living my life according to his will. I had created my own God, which would never let his people get sad, or anything bad happen to them. I was angry at him for letting this happen to me, and just kind of forgot about him. I now realized that he cares for me, and wants me to learn. I have accepted him back in my life, and now he is a big part of it. Threw my sorrow, I sought out God, and throw my faith, he has allowed me to cope with this, and understand.
I guess what I am saying, is that this break up was in itself so hard, and so sad, but it put my whole life in perspective, and helped me realized that I was living it wrong. It helped me change for the better, and realize that my heart will go on, and I can exist by myself, and helped me find God, and have hope once again. It sounds odd, but thank you Tammy. Thank you for everything you have given me, and taught. It means everything to me.
Who knows, maybe along the way something beautiful will happen to me, I wont say what, because I don't know, that’s the beauty of it. Until then, TIGGER BOUNCES AGAIN!
Cereal Ponderings
Well, today I tried honey clusters of oats cereal this morning. It was ok, but it tasted like cattle silage, and had these little things in it that reminded me of styrafome pieces. LOL. Weird. And speaking of cereal, I love grapenuts, it reminds me of munching of rocks. Its neat, maybe like I am related to that big giant on harry potter... darn its been to long, I cant remember his name... Its like Hil-, or something. LOL in the cast of Harry Potter and the Chamber or Secrets there is an Oliver Phelps! OMG! (Inside joke you wont get unless you know my psyc teacher)... Hilgred? No... HAGRID! haha!. Anyway so eating grape nuts make me feel like Hagrid. Anyway ya, Im gonna go, before I cause irrepairable brain damage hehe.
5/01/2005
Men Suck
It makes me mad how my gender (male, lol) treats women. I have alot of friends, and most of them only care about sex, and treat their women like objects. This is so sad. I guess I know some women who do that as well. Sex isn't supposed to be a major deciding factor, its simply a perk, of love. If I loved the right person enough, I could go through life without doing anything sexual with them. I'd rather be in love, then have meaningless sex with a random woman. Don't get me wrong, sex is great, but most people abuse it, and they lose the true meaning of it. Where is the love people? Every girl deserves to feel special, and they shouldnt be objectified into a sex toy. They should be treated like an angel, and forever cherished, because love is more important then sex. Love is the greatest thing in the world. Greater then Gold, Money, Big Houses, Sex and Camaros. If you have found love, then you have found something worth living for, and you should hold on to it, and cherish it above all the material things of the earth. Treat your girl like you want to be treated, and ask yourself a question... would YOU date YOU?
Boys of Summer
Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home
But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
Out on the road today, I saw a black black sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home
But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
Out on the road today, I saw a black black sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
Empty and Alone
***This is another sad one, and no one has to read it if they dont wanna. Its more for me, but maybe you will. I know I have been depressed for the last two months, and everyone is probably getting sick of it, but so am I. But I cant just make these feelings go away. Its more for me right now, I guess. Just to get my thoughts down.Its probably mostly crying over what I have lost, and cannot be.
The phone rings... I jump is it for me?! Dale says: "Tyler." YES! Is it her? No, Darn, its just Norm... I have to go into work early. I also get to miss breakfast. Damn life sucks. I had a few people ask me if I was tired or something. Nice to know some people cared. Tim was a little worried about me, and so was michelle. I guess I feel so empty inside that all the life in my eyes has dried up. I guess I look like I feel. I know its not attractive or fun to be around a depressed person, but who do I have to impress...
Skippy, and I talked yesterday. He is a nice person, about 35 years old who works at Zkota, and who has lost all faith in himself. He has fun, but he doesnt (believe) anymore, and has never got the courage to ask anyone out. I keep wondering if I'll turn into another Skippy. OH well, it doesnt matter.
Today I was ceaslessly bombarded with bittersweet memories of us. I can't understand how you dont want to make any more with me. But its your choice I guess. My heart hurt so bad a few times I felt like crying. I did before work, and almost am now. I guess you probably think I am a pathetic child. I guess I probably am. I don't want you to be my mommy either.
I keep trying to tell myself different things about how life will get better, but I don't know if I believe them. I don't want things to get better I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU! I know that isnt what you need right now, and am sorry for my selfish desire. I hope things get better for you.
And I hope they get better for me...
The phone rings... I jump is it for me?! Dale says: "Tyler." YES! Is it her? No, Darn, its just Norm... I have to go into work early. I also get to miss breakfast. Damn life sucks. I had a few people ask me if I was tired or something. Nice to know some people cared. Tim was a little worried about me, and so was michelle. I guess I feel so empty inside that all the life in my eyes has dried up. I guess I look like I feel. I know its not attractive or fun to be around a depressed person, but who do I have to impress...
Skippy, and I talked yesterday. He is a nice person, about 35 years old who works at Zkota, and who has lost all faith in himself. He has fun, but he doesnt (believe) anymore, and has never got the courage to ask anyone out. I keep wondering if I'll turn into another Skippy. OH well, it doesnt matter.
Today I was ceaslessly bombarded with bittersweet memories of us. I can't understand how you dont want to make any more with me. But its your choice I guess. My heart hurt so bad a few times I felt like crying. I did before work, and almost am now. I guess you probably think I am a pathetic child. I guess I probably am. I don't want you to be my mommy either.
I keep trying to tell myself different things about how life will get better, but I don't know if I believe them. I don't want things to get better I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU! I know that isnt what you need right now, and am sorry for my selfish desire. I hope things get better for you.
And I hope they get better for me...
4/30/2005
4/27/2005
I believe- Lyrics
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people’s hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it’s bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I’m loved when I’m completely by myself alone
I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye
I believe you can’t control or choose your sexuality
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity
I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye
I believe we place our happiness in other people’s hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it’s bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I’m loved when I’m completely by myself alone
I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye
I believe you can’t control or choose your sexuality
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity
I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye
4/23/2005
The Dangerous Intrigue of the Occult
Today, many people dabble in the mystical, occultic arts. (also know as magic) Is there anything wrong with being involved in these practices? Yes, the Bible takes a clear position on this subject, strongly denouncing these practices. God created us and therefore owns us. He has a right to set the rules for our lives. Gods Word indicates that these practices are part of Satan's strategy of evil tricks and deception, designed to lead us astray. Satan and his demons are real beings set on our destruction. Christians are warned to "put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" (Ephesians 6:11-12).
ASTROLOGY
Although the Bible does go into great detail about astrology, it certainly makes its position clear. We should never trust in astrological beliefs or predictions. Astrology is an ancient, heathen practice that leads to disaster. Our lives are not determined by the stars or movement of planets. The Bible warns against the false predictions of astrology (Jeremiah 10:2; 27:9-10; Daniel 2:1-4; 4:7; 5:7-9) and repeatedly condemns the associated practice of worshipping the sun, moon and stars (or "deities or demons associated with them") (Deuteronomy 4:19; 17:2-5; 2 Kings 21:3, 5; Zephaniah 1:5; Job 31:26-28; Jeremiah 8:1-2).
Magic, Spells, Enchantments, Charming, Sorcery, Wizardry, Witchcraft
Those who follow the path of the magic arts are on the wrong path - a road that leads away from God, not toward Him. In one way or another, the end will be disaster. The evil Queen Jezebel practiced witchcraft (2 Kings 9:22) bringing catastrophe on herself and all Israel. Over and over, God denounces those who "conjure spells" (NKJV) and those who practice witchcraft and sorcery. The Bible says that anyone who does these things is detestable to the Lord (Deuteronomy 18:10-12; 2 Kings 21:6; Micah 5:12; Isaiah 47:12; Ezekiel 13:18, 20; Acts 8:11-24; Leviticus 20:27; Exodus 7:11; Revelation 9:21; 22:15).
God warns of the ultimate punishment. Revelation 21:8 says of "...those who practice magic arts ...their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur... the second death" (NIV). Those who practice witchcraft (sorcery) will not inherit the kingdom of God (Galatians 5:20-21). These practices are anti-God and are in rebellion against Him.
Divination, Fortune-telling, Mediums, Spiritism, Necromancy, Familiar Spirits, Wizardry, Seances, Channeling, Clairvoyance, Spirit-guides
The Bible strongly warns people not to consult mediums and spiritists for the truth, but to inquire of God (Isaiah 8:19). Clearly, if those who practiced these arts have any power (beyond being great deceivers), it is not a gift from God (as some falsely claim). The Bible condemns and forbids these practices several times (Deuteronomy 18:9-14; Isaiah 44:25; Jeremiah 27:9; 2 Kings 21:6; 23:24). Divination and Spiritism were despised practices of the heathens (Ezekiel 21:21; Isaiah 19:3; 1 Samuel 28). Scripture says that one of the reasons King Saul died was "because he consulted a medium for guidance" rather than God (1 Chronicles 10:13-14).
Following omens or signs
We are not to look to omens or "signs" to direct our lives. The Bible reprimands people for doing this. It is an "abomination" and foolishness (Deuteronomy 18:10-12). Look to God and His instructions for life as provided in the Bible. To do otherwise is to foolishly deceive yourself, or allow Satan and others to deceive you.
*Taken from: http://www.christiananswers.net/q-eden/edn-occult.html
ASTROLOGY
Although the Bible does go into great detail about astrology, it certainly makes its position clear. We should never trust in astrological beliefs or predictions. Astrology is an ancient, heathen practice that leads to disaster. Our lives are not determined by the stars or movement of planets. The Bible warns against the false predictions of astrology (Jeremiah 10:2; 27:9-10; Daniel 2:1-4; 4:7; 5:7-9) and repeatedly condemns the associated practice of worshipping the sun, moon and stars (or "deities or demons associated with them") (Deuteronomy 4:19; 17:2-5; 2 Kings 21:3, 5; Zephaniah 1:5; Job 31:26-28; Jeremiah 8:1-2).
Magic, Spells, Enchantments, Charming, Sorcery, Wizardry, Witchcraft
Those who follow the path of the magic arts are on the wrong path - a road that leads away from God, not toward Him. In one way or another, the end will be disaster. The evil Queen Jezebel practiced witchcraft (2 Kings 9:22) bringing catastrophe on herself and all Israel. Over and over, God denounces those who "conjure spells" (NKJV) and those who practice witchcraft and sorcery. The Bible says that anyone who does these things is detestable to the Lord (Deuteronomy 18:10-12; 2 Kings 21:6; Micah 5:12; Isaiah 47:12; Ezekiel 13:18, 20; Acts 8:11-24; Leviticus 20:27; Exodus 7:11; Revelation 9:21; 22:15).
God warns of the ultimate punishment. Revelation 21:8 says of "...those who practice magic arts ...their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur... the second death" (NIV). Those who practice witchcraft (sorcery) will not inherit the kingdom of God (Galatians 5:20-21). These practices are anti-God and are in rebellion against Him.
Divination, Fortune-telling, Mediums, Spiritism, Necromancy, Familiar Spirits, Wizardry, Seances, Channeling, Clairvoyance, Spirit-guides
The Bible strongly warns people not to consult mediums and spiritists for the truth, but to inquire of God (Isaiah 8:19). Clearly, if those who practiced these arts have any power (beyond being great deceivers), it is not a gift from God (as some falsely claim). The Bible condemns and forbids these practices several times (Deuteronomy 18:9-14; Isaiah 44:25; Jeremiah 27:9; 2 Kings 21:6; 23:24). Divination and Spiritism were despised practices of the heathens (Ezekiel 21:21; Isaiah 19:3; 1 Samuel 28). Scripture says that one of the reasons King Saul died was "because he consulted a medium for guidance" rather than God (1 Chronicles 10:13-14).
Following omens or signs
We are not to look to omens or "signs" to direct our lives. The Bible reprimands people for doing this. It is an "abomination" and foolishness (Deuteronomy 18:10-12). Look to God and His instructions for life as provided in the Bible. To do otherwise is to foolishly deceive yourself, or allow Satan and others to deceive you.
*Taken from: http://www.christiananswers.net/q-eden/edn-occult.html
4/21/2005
A squirrel found my Liscence
So Mike Bates wanted to see a picture of Tammy. So I put it in my wallet, and noticed that I didnt have my drivers liscense. Thats not right. So I search a little, and come to the conclusion that it must be at Hy-Vee where I cashed my check yesterday. I parked by another camaro, and a 60's muscle car. HAHA I love parking by cool cars. So anyway, they do have it, and I am happy because I really want to see Tammy, and it might not be a good idea going there without a liscence, and I dunno how long it would take to get one back, maybe theyd give me a temp one, but its alot better this way... I am so hungry. I ate like 3 bowls of cherrios this morning, and am really hungry. LOL. Cant wait to work so I can eat a double chili greese burger heart attack(TM) hehe. GROWWWLL!
Dumb People
So I got my car fixed today. Apparently the problem was loose exhaust. 31 bucks. I returned my tint, because if I do it, I want it done by a professional. Because its easy to mess up. That was 19 dollars I got back so it barely cost me anything. (repairing my car). So I walked home, and then back. It wasnt to far to go. Then I see this guy on a bike at the crosswalk. Hes like does that say watch? I look where he is looking and cant find any writing in that direction at all. I look at him confused. Hes like never mind. I am looking around, and I ask if he meant the perkins sign? He gets mad and says: NO THE PEDESTRIAN CROSSWALK SIGN! Well I dont think I am retarded, but its a hand, and it means stop! dont cross the streat numbnuts because cars are coming... it doesnt even have writing on it, its a picture! So I dont understand why he got so pissed at me because he was the retard.
So then I go pick up my car. The clunking is gone. On the key chain they had a sticker that said camaro, but they spelled it cemero.... how can somebody who works on cars NOT know how to spell camaro? MY GOSH! Sure I am a journalism major, and he is a mechanic. I couldnt fix my car, but still... that would sound like semaro... its kinda obvious isnt it?
Then I was watching this show called unique whips. About car customization for uber rich people, and they are working on this 1964 lincoln. It even says on the bottom of the screen 1964 Lincoln. The guy was like did that orignally come like that? I guess you cant tell on a 30 year old car... WHAT?! I know this show isnt very old because they had a 2004 corvette. 2004-1964 = 40 not 30. My gosh people.
I mean I know I am retarded, but today, people are more retarded then I am, and frankly thats very disturbing!
So then I go pick up my car. The clunking is gone. On the key chain they had a sticker that said camaro, but they spelled it cemero.... how can somebody who works on cars NOT know how to spell camaro? MY GOSH! Sure I am a journalism major, and he is a mechanic. I couldnt fix my car, but still... that would sound like semaro... its kinda obvious isnt it?
Then I was watching this show called unique whips. About car customization for uber rich people, and they are working on this 1964 lincoln. It even says on the bottom of the screen 1964 Lincoln. The guy was like did that orignally come like that? I guess you cant tell on a 30 year old car... WHAT?! I know this show isnt very old because they had a 2004 corvette. 2004-1964 = 40 not 30. My gosh people.
I mean I know I am retarded, but today, people are more retarded then I am, and frankly thats very disturbing!
4/20/2005
4/19/2005
Cruisin Tuesday
I was bored so I went to Sam & Ein's Dorm (twinkie a HOHO).We decided to go cruising, and I ended up driving sams car.A 95 pontiac grand am. Cough. That car has like 0 balls. I guess I am used to a Z28, but sheesh I couldnt even get his tires to squeel, and it didnt even feel like it accelerated even with it to the floor. But whatever. So we all decide to rock back, and forth, and then we got the car shaking a lot. On 6th street its like the longest and busiest street in town. AT about 10 oclock tonight. We had also sams friend Denko in the car. We are like OH SHIT a COP! Then the cop starts to turn, and I am like ahhh! He was going the opposite direction as us, and turns toward his right, and we turn to our right. I drive a block, and turn left. Denko Is like GOOOOOO he has his cherries on and everything. So I keep turning fast, and after a bit hes like hes gone... Then I am like are you guys shitting me? There like yeah. Sams like "WE GOT YOU GOOD YOU FUCKER!" (line from super troopers) but I was actually a bit scared. HAHA. Sheesh.
So back at the dorms we are all like where is HOHO? Then were like I bet hes taking a dump. We go in there and dump like 2 cups of water over the stall. Then we run out laughing, and then were like dude I dont think that was HOHO. Another guy went in there and got him again, and were all like who is it? Freakin out its someone we didnt know haha. He we hear a flush like 4 minutes later. Its HOHO, and he is soaked. We all bust out laughing. IT was hilarious.
So back at the dorms we are all like where is HOHO? Then were like I bet hes taking a dump. We go in there and dump like 2 cups of water over the stall. Then we run out laughing, and then were like dude I dont think that was HOHO. Another guy went in there and got him again, and were all like who is it? Freakin out its someone we didnt know haha. He we hear a flush like 4 minutes later. Its HOHO, and he is soaked. We all bust out laughing. IT was hilarious.
Pope Benedict XVI
Pope Benedict XVI
78-year old Cardinal Ratzinger of Germany is elected as new pope.
Thats good, but honestly... this guy is 78! He probably doesnt have that many years left in him... I mean age CAN create wisdom, but that doesnt mean it does... Electing a younger man wouldnt have been a bad idea. But whatever, I have no idea how these things work, so Ill leave this up to people who are more... knowing of what their traditions dictate. Its just that he is so OLD....
78-year old Cardinal Ratzinger of Germany is elected as new pope.
Thats good, but honestly... this guy is 78! He probably doesnt have that many years left in him... I mean age CAN create wisdom, but that doesnt mean it does... Electing a younger man wouldnt have been a bad idea. But whatever, I have no idea how these things work, so Ill leave this up to people who are more... knowing of what their traditions dictate. Its just that he is so OLD....
4/17/2005
"Just Another Day"
Morning alone
When you come home
I breath a little faster
Every time we're together
It'd never be the same
If you're not here
How can you stay away, away so long.
Why can't we stay together
Give me a reason
Give me a reason.
[Chorus]
I, I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
It's just another day
Making the time
Find the right lines
What do I have to tell you
I'm just trying to hold on to something
(Trying to hold on to something good)
Give us a chance to make it.
Don't wanna hold on to never
I'm not that strong
I'm not that strong.
I, I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
I, I can't resist
Trying to find exactly what I miss
It's just another day without you.
Why can't you stay forever
Just give me a reason
Give me a reason.
When you come home
I breath a little faster
Every time we're together
It'd never be the same
If you're not here
How can you stay away, away so long.
Why can't we stay together
Give me a reason
Give me a reason.
[Chorus]
I, I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
It's just another day
Making the time
Find the right lines
What do I have to tell you
I'm just trying to hold on to something
(Trying to hold on to something good)
Give us a chance to make it.
Don't wanna hold on to never
I'm not that strong
I'm not that strong.
I, I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
I, I can't resist
Trying to find exactly what I miss
It's just another day without you.
Why can't you stay forever
Just give me a reason
Give me a reason.
4/15/2005
Loss of Loved One Really Can Cause Broken Heart
By Linda A. Johnson
Associated Press
posted: 09 February 2005
05:56 pm ET
Confirming the wisdom of the poets and philosophers, doctors say the sudden loss of a loved one really can cause a broken heart. In fact, they have dubbed the condition "broken heart syndrome.
In a study published just in time for Valentine's Day, doctors reported how a tragic or shocking event can stun the heart and produce classic heart attack-like symptoms, including chest pain, shortness of breath and fluid in the lungs.Unlike a heart attack, the condition is reversible.
The Johns Hopkins doctors documented how a dayslong surge of adrenaline and other stress hormones can cause a decline in the heart's pumping capacity. The researchers theorized that the hormones probably cause tiny heart blood vessels to contract, but other explanations are possible.
After I broke up with my girlfriend, whom I loved more then anything, sometimes I would feel very short of breath, and had slight chest pains. This isnt some sympathy plow, but I am just saying that I have experienced this. They have went away, after I got used to the pain and feelings of loss, and learned how to deal with it. Its just weird to think about though.
Associated Press
posted: 09 February 2005
05:56 pm ET
Confirming the wisdom of the poets and philosophers, doctors say the sudden loss of a loved one really can cause a broken heart. In fact, they have dubbed the condition "broken heart syndrome.
In a study published just in time for Valentine's Day, doctors reported how a tragic or shocking event can stun the heart and produce classic heart attack-like symptoms, including chest pain, shortness of breath and fluid in the lungs.Unlike a heart attack, the condition is reversible.
The Johns Hopkins doctors documented how a dayslong surge of adrenaline and other stress hormones can cause a decline in the heart's pumping capacity. The researchers theorized that the hormones probably cause tiny heart blood vessels to contract, but other explanations are possible.
After I broke up with my girlfriend, whom I loved more then anything, sometimes I would feel very short of breath, and had slight chest pains. This isnt some sympathy plow, but I am just saying that I have experienced this. They have went away, after I got used to the pain and feelings of loss, and learned how to deal with it. Its just weird to think about though.
4/14/2005
Cruisin USA
Sam, Ein, and I were cruisin in my car yesterday, and having fun. Ttops off with the music up, and the stupidity up as well. We seen this person dressed as a chicken by the sidewalk. He was trying to get people to go eat at this one resteraunt. We drove by him or her like 8 times, and we yelled at him waved and honked our horn. We were like WE LOVE CHICKEN! BAAAAA COCK! AND other stupid randomt things. I bet his feathers were in a ruffle whenever he seen us. One time he threw his wings up in the air in unbelief or something and turned around when we came buy. It was pretty fun. He had a Foul temper. HAHA just kidding get it foul. Anyway whatrever. Sam was driving my car like the whole time. He was cruising around a speeding somewhat. We seen a cop so we turned by the airport. He was a ways behind us, then he turn onto our road. Sam pulls into the parking lot, and we all duck, OBVIOUSLY IT WASNT HARD TO TELL IT WAS THE SAME CAR. Then sam drives behind these cars, and then sits by the exit and we watch the cop. I am like sam are you crazy?! He then floors it the other direction and confirms my belief! What a nut case. The cop didnt follow us. Lucky enough.
4/12/2005
Actual Walking Robot for Sale
"A small walking man-shaped robot for home security and entertainment is going on sale in Japan for $5,450." They are ONLY selling it in Japan. This just shows me how far behind Japan we are. The United States should get its act together, and start making robots as well! LOL. I am tired of working... I need my robot to do it. Lol, when I dont want to get up in the morning, I will tell my robot to go to Zkota for me, and make sandwhiches. Or I will tell it to go to class, and then tell me everything it heard. Which would probably be every day, because I have more important things to do then school or work! Like masturbate... JUST KIDDING! GOSH... IDIOT! The link below is for the story. Enjoy...
http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=562&ncid=738&e=5&u=/ap/20050412/ap_on_hi_te/japan_robot
http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=562&ncid=738&e=5&u=/ap/20050412/ap_on_hi_te/japan_robot
4/11/2005
Friends
Friends
~by Tyler West
Friends are great
We started as friends
You became my best friend
What could be better
Then a lover who is a friend
Friends laugh, cry, comfort, and love
They are there for one another
And make life worth living
I love you for many reasons
But one of the greatest ones
Is because you are my friend
Friends are great
I love being your friend
But there are things friends cant do
Things we once had
And things I wish we had again
You say that’s all you want right now
And I will always be your friend
As your friend I will grant your request
I will be happy and make you laugh
But I want you to know
Someday I wish for more
I want to be your lover and I want to be your friend
~by Tyler West
Friends are great
We started as friends
You became my best friend
What could be better
Then a lover who is a friend
Friends laugh, cry, comfort, and love
They are there for one another
And make life worth living
I love you for many reasons
But one of the greatest ones
Is because you are my friend
Friends are great
I love being your friend
But there are things friends cant do
Things we once had
And things I wish we had again
You say that’s all you want right now
And I will always be your friend
As your friend I will grant your request
I will be happy and make you laugh
But I want you to know
Someday I wish for more
I want to be your lover and I want to be your friend
4/09/2005
Clowning Around
Mikes GF Tammy and I clown around sometimes. She likes to insult me, and I like to insult her... lol. Jockingly of course. But anyway she threw this multi colored rag at me when I wasnt looking. I bent down to pick it up, and started to laugh to myself, you could see it on my face tho. It was a silent giggle if you know what I mean. She sees me, ands like look hes laughing to himself! WHAT A FREAK. HAHAHA! It probably seemed strange to anyone looking at me. The reason I was laughing was because the rag triggered me to think about why dont women dye their umm "gardens" different colors? I mean people do that with the hair on their heads all the time... Or get it highlighted. I have never seen one like that... not that I have seen many at all, but I have never heard of it either. HEHE. If I was a girl, I think I would get highlights in mine for sure. I dunno maybe its cause its WEIRD! Thats why I was laughing anyway. Imagine a "carrrot patch" dyed so it looked like the rainbow HAAHAA!
***Sorry If I offended anyone out there. I am a sick dirty pervert occasionally, and if George Carlin can get away with things like that on TV I surely can on here. Well that is if my women friends dont casterate me first...
***Sorry If I offended anyone out there. I am a sick dirty pervert occasionally, and if George Carlin can get away with things like that on TV I surely can on here. Well that is if my women friends dont casterate me first...
4/08/2005
Yesterday Was Interesting
So Chris from Zkota calls me, and wants me to go hang out at the Amaco. I arrive and there is like 15 people there. This was at like 8:30 or something. They were racing a lawnmover and a little scooter things. (basically a skate board with a motor and a handle you rode it standing up.) We were very racious. Then they had a truck with a couch in it. They fit like 10 people in it, and chris and chasity rode in my car. We took off my ttops in the middle of the night it was cool. We then raced the poeople in the truck with the couch. LOL we gave them a head start tho. It was pretty fun. I always feel like I am going to be arrested when I hang out with Chris. LOL. Never got my tint on my windows tho! Then I went over to play D&D at mikes that was pretty fun he had his friend Jacob over, and he is like the most charismatic and jocking person I have ever met. Except maybe my cousin Neil. (hed had a corvette) (not that thats relevant). Then I hung out with Mike Bates band at the amaco at like midnight. We went to his house, and watched a movie of them playing. It was interesting, but I didnt really connect with any of his friends, except the one I let ride in my camaro.
Anyway so I go to bed, and cant stop thinking about Tammy. Even though I had all this fun with my friends I still miss her so much. Does she miss me? I dunno she never likes to talk about her feelings to me anymore unless I prod her, Then she gets mad, and I ahve to drop it. She doesnt like to talk about us anymore. I dunno why it feels like she wants to forget about us. I dunno why. She says she doesmt, but the way she acts makes me wander.
I am trying to give it time, but will that help. I dunno. I am soooooo fucking longing for a girlfriend. I see all the SDSU couples holding hands, and I wish I could just hold someones hand who loves me. Trust them, confide with them Laugh, and have fun. Be their world and and them be mine. My only problem is I want that person to be TAMMY! Why cant it just go back to normal? When I was happy and so was she? What did I do to deserve a broken heart? Love her? Why cant I have someone? Am I destined to be alone? Am I destined to settle for someone that I dont really love, but that makes me not feel alone? I pray every day that it is not so, but nothing changes. I wish somebody could help me. I feel so alone.
Anyway so I go to bed, and cant stop thinking about Tammy. Even though I had all this fun with my friends I still miss her so much. Does she miss me? I dunno she never likes to talk about her feelings to me anymore unless I prod her, Then she gets mad, and I ahve to drop it. She doesnt like to talk about us anymore. I dunno why it feels like she wants to forget about us. I dunno why. She says she doesmt, but the way she acts makes me wander.
I am trying to give it time, but will that help. I dunno. I am soooooo fucking longing for a girlfriend. I see all the SDSU couples holding hands, and I wish I could just hold someones hand who loves me. Trust them, confide with them Laugh, and have fun. Be their world and and them be mine. My only problem is I want that person to be TAMMY! Why cant it just go back to normal? When I was happy and so was she? What did I do to deserve a broken heart? Love her? Why cant I have someone? Am I destined to be alone? Am I destined to settle for someone that I dont really love, but that makes me not feel alone? I pray every day that it is not so, but nothing changes. I wish somebody could help me. I feel so alone.
4/06/2005
I want to Remember You,
ARGH! I was walking down the sidewalk infront of Mathews hall today, and I sort of seen this girl.I say sort of because the sun was my eyes. Anyway my memory is like BAM! I get a de ja vue... a memory of a memory. This girl jogs a memory of another girl I THINK I once knew. She looked a lot like Tammy. Same hair, same height, this one that was walking had the same pants that I remember this girl wearing. They wer black and baggy. Its like a memory of a memory. But now I remember her in more detail… I am now obsessed with finding out who this girl is… I need to know. She looks a lot like Tammy. So this was on the way to my one gay class, and then after class BAM! I REMEMBER HER FACE… But I am doubting my mind is this girl real or not? Could she be my mind creating something, and tricking itself. Just now I think I remember talking to her and she was holding her books to her chest… Why is this bugging me so much? I think I remember her…but do I? I think Darci might know who I am talking about but she isn’t on msn! This is driving me insane… I think I mighta had a semi crush on her… I think I might of seen her at our old HS… but I cant be sure… I REALLY WANT TO KNOW! AHHHHHHH! Damn it! I completely remember her face now, and I remember how she talked… but I cant be sure if its real. LOL I AM NOT INSANE! I think she was my friend for a little while… or we at least talked.
Ok its like 10 minutes later from when I wrote this now. I get all Sherlock Homes and I'm like if she had books then she must have went to school with me. I now think I can remember her sitting and doing her homework in the hallway. This is so weird... She musta been in a class ahead of me... Some reason I want to meet her again if she is real. OMG THIS IS SOOOO WEIRD! Why cant I totally remember her?
I also had a thought that maybe she was my initial view of tammy. Before I got to know her and I just seen her around, but I dont think so...
Ok its like 10 minutes later from when I wrote this now. I get all Sherlock Homes and I'm like if she had books then she must have went to school with me. I now think I can remember her sitting and doing her homework in the hallway. This is so weird... She musta been in a class ahead of me... Some reason I want to meet her again if she is real. OMG THIS IS SOOOO WEIRD! Why cant I totally remember her?
I also had a thought that maybe she was my initial view of tammy. Before I got to know her and I just seen her around, but I dont think so...
4/05/2005
The Game of Life
Sometimes its easier to explain life with an analogy instead of plain words… why I don’t know. However, here is my analogy:
Remember that game we played as little kids… the one with all the shapes, and the table with different holes for the shapes. There was only one shape that fit in one hole. Although sometimes you could cram the circle into the square hole or something, but you always could tell that it wouldn’t fit just right. I have always been trying to cram the wrong shape into the wrong hole… but it never felt right. Then all of a sudden quite by accident I found my right shape. We fit together so well it was obvious we were meant to be together… Then my shape decided it wanted to try to cram itself into a different hole. Now, when you already had a perfect fit isn’t it foolish to settle for being a circle in a square hole. If that’s what it is eventually your hole is going to be pretty damn uncomfortable. As for this hole, why should it go seek squares? They will only disappoint me in the end… I have already found my circle… it just needs to realize it is a circle and come back to its perfect hole… and if it does not… I am not going to try to cram squares when I already found my circle, even if my circle cannot see I am a round hole anymore.
Remember that game we played as little kids… the one with all the shapes, and the table with different holes for the shapes. There was only one shape that fit in one hole. Although sometimes you could cram the circle into the square hole or something, but you always could tell that it wouldn’t fit just right. I have always been trying to cram the wrong shape into the wrong hole… but it never felt right. Then all of a sudden quite by accident I found my right shape. We fit together so well it was obvious we were meant to be together… Then my shape decided it wanted to try to cram itself into a different hole. Now, when you already had a perfect fit isn’t it foolish to settle for being a circle in a square hole. If that’s what it is eventually your hole is going to be pretty damn uncomfortable. As for this hole, why should it go seek squares? They will only disappoint me in the end… I have already found my circle… it just needs to realize it is a circle and come back to its perfect hole… and if it does not… I am not going to try to cram squares when I already found my circle, even if my circle cannot see I am a round hole anymore.
4/03/2005
Tiger Ducks
A lactating woman in Myanmar has volunteered to breastfeed a pair of endangered Bengal tiger cubs recently born at a Yangon zoo and separated from their aggressive mother.
The two-week-old cubs, a male and a female, were taken from their mother Noah Noah after she killed the third cub in her litter, prompting veterinarians to engage in alternative childcare, the semi-official Myanmar Times weekly reported in its edition to be published Monday.
Oh... okie... I hope they dont bite your umm... DUCKS.
The two-week-old cubs, a male and a female, were taken from their mother Noah Noah after she killed the third cub in her litter, prompting veterinarians to engage in alternative childcare, the semi-official Myanmar Times weekly reported in its edition to be published Monday.
Oh... okie... I hope they dont bite your umm... DUCKS.
Camaro Update
As many of you know my Camaro was sitting in another city, since last monday! Due to a massive coolant leak, MY worst fears were confirmed when it was the waterpump that had a hole in it instead of a hose. A 150 dollar waterpump! My buddies uncle so nicely paid for it until I get paid and we worked on my car until 1 in the morning! It was kinda neat though. The leak is gone, but the coolant sign is still on. Even though the coolant is fine. And it still trys to run hot, but when the temp gauge gets up about half way the fans kick on and it cools down. Except if I am moving, then there is alot of cool air coming into my car, and it stays at normal temp. It is drivable, but I will probably have to fix this problem this wednesday, but I am happy to have my baby back!
3/31/2005
Wanderings
I feel funny. Life is weird. I want something differnt. Something weird and strange, a mystery that will bring me to something exciting. I hope something is going to change for the better, because lately it has mostly been crap. Except for this monday. But thats only one day in a series of mediocre ones. I hope there something new over this next hill...... because frankly... Im Bored.
3/30/2005
Gay People
So these queers calling themsleves the CRC give me this post card. IT says call for good news. So after a few attempts and them being busy, I finally get soem dousche bag who wants to sell me some magazines. I get 2 free ones and like 6 ones I have to pay 4 dollars each for. He is talking fast like that Carney who tried to rip me off at the fair. (who succeeded because he talked fast they say free but what they mean is 10 dollars for a tiny toy) He was like gime me some info and stuff. OF course he said it nicer, but then I did, and I was transferd and this lady describes the deal and if i am aware of it, I am like what If I dont want to pay. I am transfered to this other lady who was really obnoxious and musta had braces she says this has nothing to do with magazines would u like 350 bucks of grocerys and a gas card for free? Just give my your credit card #. Im like I think Ill pass.. WHY WHAT MADE YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND?!!!! I am like I dunno. She asks me if I want to again. Im like NO! OK have a nice day. OMG! I am a people pleaser at times, but I know (after the carney) when I am being suckerd. And I think these people need to be severely beaten.
3/29/2005
Maybe Someday?
I look back at my old notes and cards and everything from you and they are just pieces of paper, they don't mean anything to anyone right? Well those little pieces of paper mean the world to me, they mean I once had you and you once loved me, and they give me some hope, that if you loved me before, if you cared about me that much before, then you can do it again. ~ Maegan Michelle
Someone Elses Star
Alone again tonight
Without someone to love
The stars are shining
So one more wish goes up
Oh I wish I may
And I wish with all my might
For the love I’m dreaming of
And missing in my life
You’d think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time
To people that I know
Their wishes all come true
So I’ve got to believe
There’s still someone out there who
Is meant for only me
I guess I must be wishing on
Someone else’s star
It seems like someone else keeps getting
What I’m wishing for
Why can’t I be as lucky
As those other people are
I guess I must be wishing
On someone else’s star
I sit here in the dark
And stare up at the sky
But I can’t give my heart
One good reason why
Everywhere I look
It’s lovers that I see
It seems like everyone’s in love
With everyone but me
I guess I must be wishing on
Someone else’s star
It seems like someone else keeps getting
What I’m wishing for
Why can’t I be as lucky
As those other people are
I guess I must be wishing
On someone else’s star
Why can’t I be as lucky
As those other people are
Oh, I guess I must be wishing
On someone else’s star
Without someone to love
The stars are shining
So one more wish goes up
Oh I wish I may
And I wish with all my might
For the love I’m dreaming of
And missing in my life
You’d think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time
To people that I know
Their wishes all come true
So I’ve got to believe
There’s still someone out there who
Is meant for only me
I guess I must be wishing on
Someone else’s star
It seems like someone else keeps getting
What I’m wishing for
Why can’t I be as lucky
As those other people are
I guess I must be wishing
On someone else’s star
I sit here in the dark
And stare up at the sky
But I can’t give my heart
One good reason why
Everywhere I look
It’s lovers that I see
It seems like everyone’s in love
With everyone but me
I guess I must be wishing on
Someone else’s star
It seems like someone else keeps getting
What I’m wishing for
Why can’t I be as lucky
As those other people are
I guess I must be wishing
On someone else’s star
Why can’t I be as lucky
As those other people are
Oh, I guess I must be wishing
On someone else’s star
3/28/2005
Last Notes
You’re so precious to me, I don’t even think you realize how much. It’s like that blanket or teddy bear everyone has when they’re little – never able to be parted with, always the most important thing, and love more than anything else in the world. That’s what you are to me, and you always will be … forever.
The only thing I’m guilty of is giving you too much love. ~ Dream
The only thing I’m guilty of is giving you too much love. ~ Dream
3/25/2005
My car paid me for vacuuming it!
I was vacuuming my car this afternoon, and I keep finding change. Mostly Quarters... I am like AWESOME! I found 1.95$ in change. Thats pretty cool. I guess my car was really pleased she got vacuumed. I also found this dime that was in my little thing that adjucts the seat incline. It apparently had been there a long time and was totally mangled it was awesome. Anyway I think I am going to name my Camaro Selina. HEHE. WHat?! Other people name their Camaros as well!
3/24/2005
Slang Terms for Intoxication
Baked
Blitzed
Bombed
Cooked
Faded
Fried
Frying
Fucked Up
Gonzoed
Hammered
High
Loaded
Nodding
Plastered
Stoned
Smashed
Snockered
Spraked
Trashed
Tripping
Tweaking
Wasted
Blitzed
Bombed
Cooked
Faded
Fried
Frying
Fucked Up
Gonzoed
Hammered
High
Loaded
Nodding
Plastered
Stoned
Smashed
Snockered
Spraked
Trashed
Tripping
Tweaking
Wasted
A Sheep in Wolves Clothing
I was reading my psych book (no I am not on drug) (but at first I typed I was reading my psych class so maybe I am just crazy)... lol
So anyway in my psych book I am reading about conditioning. Which is associating something with something else that is unrelated due to pain or pleasure. Such as Pavlovs dog. They rang a bell every time he was fed, and pretty soon he started salivating to the bell even when food wasnt present, because he associated the bell with food. (actually I disagree somewhat... yes they TECHNICALLY made the dog salivate to a bell, but really he was still salivating to the food, he just thought the bell ringing meant food was coming)
So anyway in a practical application researchers applied this technique to deter wolves from eating rancher's sheep, without killing the wolves. They laced sheep meat with chemicals that cause nausea. And as a result they developed conditioned aversion to sheep. The funny part is that this worked so well a few of the wolves became afraid OF THE SHEEP! That is hilarious. I think anyway. hehe.
So anyway in my psych book I am reading about conditioning. Which is associating something with something else that is unrelated due to pain or pleasure. Such as Pavlovs dog. They rang a bell every time he was fed, and pretty soon he started salivating to the bell even when food wasnt present, because he associated the bell with food. (actually I disagree somewhat... yes they TECHNICALLY made the dog salivate to a bell, but really he was still salivating to the food, he just thought the bell ringing meant food was coming)
So anyway in a practical application researchers applied this technique to deter wolves from eating rancher's sheep, without killing the wolves. They laced sheep meat with chemicals that cause nausea. And as a result they developed conditioned aversion to sheep. The funny part is that this worked so well a few of the wolves became afraid OF THE SHEEP! That is hilarious. I think anyway. hehe.
What I learned in Psych Class
We are all just congealed stardust, an accidental byproduct of cosmic chemistry. We have no free will, and we simply respond to stimuls similiar to that of a computer. We have no choice in our actions they are dictated by our environment, geans, and learning. We are simply puppets of the world. There is no God, and we are simply intelligent animals.
Well I can sum up my thoughts about this in two really neat words: BULL SHIT.
Denying GOD's existance is like walking into a library and declaring the books to be the product of chance.
Well I can sum up my thoughts about this in two really neat words: BULL SHIT.
Denying GOD's existance is like walking into a library and declaring the books to be the product of chance.
Irony at its GREATEST
Well how is this for irony. Last night at around 11 pm, my buddy from work and me were going to race. We both have LOUD! exhaust, and were revving the crap out of our cars. I bet we could be heard from many blocks away. Then we are going about 50 down the biggest street in town. We hit a light and we both floor it. There were like 3 cars around us, and we were loud as jet planes. My tires with spinning from the incredible amount of torque, and Chris pulled ahead of me because I shoulda eased on the pettle then floored it so I coulda got the maximum amount of traction. Initially he pulled ahead some, but then I got my traction and left him in the dust. So anyway we honked, and I turned off to go home, and never even heard a whisper of a cop. Then this morning I come back from english class, and have a parking tickit! I forgot to hang my decal, because I was in a major hurry. Is that totally unexpected or what instead of getting in trouble for last night, I get in trouble for being forgetful! How is that for irony... now I am not complaining, but its just like... sheesh. The fine for being forgetful at SDSU is 20 bucks. My friend from english class said hed give me his get out of jail free ticket, because I already used mine, but then we couldnt because it was only for his decal #. But the guy was really nice about it. I went and parked by all the cop cars and my Camaro was like haha want to race. The cars of course said nothing. Being slow and all. So the moral of the story is when you are worried about the big things in life the little things come and kill you. Not that I was worried, just a bit wary for common sense.
3/22/2005
Scientists Detect Two Decision-making Pathways In Human Brain
In a classic Aesop fable, the Ant diligently stores food for the upcoming winter, while the Grasshopper lounges in the summer sun oblivious to the impeding change of season. Like the characters in this tale, people are often torn between impulsively choosing immediate rewards or more deliberatively planning for the future. And now new research supported in part by the National Institute on Aging (NIA), a part of the National Institutes of Health (NIH), suggests why: human decision-making is influenced by the interactions of two distinct systems in the brain which — like the Ant and Grasshopper — are often at odds.
I feel like that when I am "trying" to do homework... lets see I could, play on the internet, DRIVE MY CAR, watch tv.. or I could do my homework... Tough decision... not. I usually procrastinate to long... and often times barely get done what I needed to do... and winter is coming. Will you be ready?
PS.. Actually spring is coming... but just play along ok people. GOSH!
I feel like that when I am "trying" to do homework... lets see I could, play on the internet, DRIVE MY CAR, watch tv.. or I could do my homework... Tough decision... not. I usually procrastinate to long... and often times barely get done what I needed to do... and winter is coming. Will you be ready?
PS.. Actually spring is coming... but just play along ok people. GOSH!
Love Quote
"I have learned the basics of dating, and now have moved on to higher level confusion." - Tyler West
3/21/2005
3/20/2005
Wanting What You Cant Have
I wrote this time a long time ago... posted it on my site... unfortunatly it has relevance in my life again. I wish I could be happy somehow again... but its such a fleeting emotion nowadays.
I sit here forever alone
comtemplating my cruel fate
destined to live a solitary life
forever seeking that which I can't have
My desire is so close
torturing me the most
near enough to touch
yet I can't have what I want so much
I knock on you door
but am denied entrance
my soul just seeks shelter
so it can be complete
Oh woe am I
if only I was him
then perhaps you'd let me in
and my heart would sing again
I sit here forever alone
comtemplating my cruel fate
destined to live a solitary life
forever seeking that which I can't have
My desire is so close
torturing me the most
near enough to touch
yet I can't have what I want so much
I knock on you door
but am denied entrance
my soul just seeks shelter
so it can be complete
Oh woe am I
if only I was him
then perhaps you'd let me in
and my heart would sing again
3/19/2005
The Mediocre Life
We started to have problems around valentines day, about two weeks later, we broke up. Then at my birthday party I find out she is dating her old boyfriend. This whole thing totally caught me off guard, and I dont really know why it happenend. She told me things like its not your fault... your perfect, and its not you. I have basically been miserable for about a month now. We still see each other, but its obviously not the same. She says she might still come back to me, she just needs to figure herself out, and understand why she still has feelings for this guy. All I can think of is getting her back, but I know she needs time to evaluate her emotions. I go from periods of trying to convince her to come back, to deep dark depressions with sarcastic recoils that I know hurt my baby, and after I say them I want to die, to trying to understand and be supportive. I want to do the last thing, but its the hardest thing I have ever done. I guess I realize that trying to convince her to come back is a bad idea... I still want her back, but she isnt ready yet... if she ever will be. So It is only complicating things. Only time will help. It is just that its the hardest thing I have ever done... letting go of heaven... I dont want to let go, and maybe I never will totally. I pray, and wish that I could wake up from this nightmare, and hold my baby, and never let her go. Just look into her eyes and get lost in their beauty. Sigh my old sighs of content, and know even if everything in the world sucks, its ok because I have her.
She is the one who gave me wings... she made me realize that I dont have to be like everyone else. She helped me find myself, and become truly happy. I had the best year of my life with her. I used to live a mediocre life, with a very few friends, and most of my days and nights consisted of books, and video games... Then I met her, and I laughed, loved, and lived. Nothing will ever compare to those days again. It was literally heaven on earth. Everyone around us could tell that we had something that would take them years to find... or they never would. We were the envy of everyone, and couldnt be happier. Then something changes, I dunno, maybe it was due to me going to college, and us not seeing eachother as often. Or the Car accident Jon got into. I dunno, all I know is that now she has feelings for Jon again, and my wings have been cut, and my everything has been taken away. I plummeted to the ground and hit hard enough to break my heart a thousand times. I return to my life of mediocrity, and hope that I wont become one of those old people who are all alone, who cant let the past go because it was so much better to live there then where they are now.
I have tried to look at other girls, just to see... there is even one who likes me at work... I was semi interested. I mean she is cute, and nice... mostly because she is alot like tammy... but I would never be happy, because she isnt tammy.I know none of them could ever even begin to measure up to my squirrel... OH I pray that It was my fault, that I did something wrong, because then I could fix myself, but no I ask her and she says its her... I would do anything to get her back, yet everything isnt enough.
You once said that you could spend the rest of your life with me, and you still think that... well I gotta tell you that you dont find people like that very often. Once in a lifetime if your extremely lucky... I know I would do my best to make your life the best ever, but you wont allow me that chance... So I sit her all alone, back to my video games and books, but they arent the same... I had a glimpse of heaven... and now everything else seems so dull. I guess its not bad to figure out your feelings. After all mistakes teach us alot in life. Who knows what will happen in a few months...except that: Tomorrow always comes sooner then one thinks.
Honestly I am thinking alot about my self, and my own pain, but I am also trying to think about yours... Perhaps this is the best thing for you right now. As I lay her in the desert unable to move anymore dying from dehydration and exhaustion a fool's hope burns in me... you have said no we cant get back together yet to me so many times now, but I still have hope... I guess its all I have left... but this time I am going to try to give you some time, and not bother you with it anymore... Go do what you have to do, and let me stop interfering... just know that I will be here waiting for you, if you ever decide to make a go at it again. And I will love you always. You dont have to worry about me getting my hopes up to much, and falling apart again if you say no... But I still have hope. I want to tell you... yes I am a pathetic mess right now, but I am strong, and I can be your man, if ever it could be again.
I wouldnt be this sad if I didnt love you so much baby... just know that please.
She is the one who gave me wings... she made me realize that I dont have to be like everyone else. She helped me find myself, and become truly happy. I had the best year of my life with her. I used to live a mediocre life, with a very few friends, and most of my days and nights consisted of books, and video games... Then I met her, and I laughed, loved, and lived. Nothing will ever compare to those days again. It was literally heaven on earth. Everyone around us could tell that we had something that would take them years to find... or they never would. We were the envy of everyone, and couldnt be happier. Then something changes, I dunno, maybe it was due to me going to college, and us not seeing eachother as often. Or the Car accident Jon got into. I dunno, all I know is that now she has feelings for Jon again, and my wings have been cut, and my everything has been taken away. I plummeted to the ground and hit hard enough to break my heart a thousand times. I return to my life of mediocrity, and hope that I wont become one of those old people who are all alone, who cant let the past go because it was so much better to live there then where they are now.
I have tried to look at other girls, just to see... there is even one who likes me at work... I was semi interested. I mean she is cute, and nice... mostly because she is alot like tammy... but I would never be happy, because she isnt tammy.I know none of them could ever even begin to measure up to my squirrel... OH I pray that It was my fault, that I did something wrong, because then I could fix myself, but no I ask her and she says its her... I would do anything to get her back, yet everything isnt enough.
You once said that you could spend the rest of your life with me, and you still think that... well I gotta tell you that you dont find people like that very often. Once in a lifetime if your extremely lucky... I know I would do my best to make your life the best ever, but you wont allow me that chance... So I sit her all alone, back to my video games and books, but they arent the same... I had a glimpse of heaven... and now everything else seems so dull. I guess its not bad to figure out your feelings. After all mistakes teach us alot in life. Who knows what will happen in a few months...except that: Tomorrow always comes sooner then one thinks.
Honestly I am thinking alot about my self, and my own pain, but I am also trying to think about yours... Perhaps this is the best thing for you right now. As I lay her in the desert unable to move anymore dying from dehydration and exhaustion a fool's hope burns in me... you have said no we cant get back together yet to me so many times now, but I still have hope... I guess its all I have left... but this time I am going to try to give you some time, and not bother you with it anymore... Go do what you have to do, and let me stop interfering... just know that I will be here waiting for you, if you ever decide to make a go at it again. And I will love you always. You dont have to worry about me getting my hopes up to much, and falling apart again if you say no... But I still have hope. I want to tell you... yes I am a pathetic mess right now, but I am strong, and I can be your man, if ever it could be again.
I wouldnt be this sad if I didnt love you so much baby... just know that please.
Sneaky Camaros
Well most people know that the Z28 Camaro with the LT1 engine (1993-1997 like mine) makes alot more hp then the factory quotes it at: 275. Due to either insurance reasons, or so it doesnt steal thunder from the corvette... or both. But how much is it really underrated? I found a site that gives an equation to approximate your 0-60 times. It is as follows:
[WEIGHT OF CAR IN KILOGRAMS/(HP*.09)]. I did a few tries with varying hp figures until I got 5.4 seconds 0-60 which it is quoted for on many websites. I have also done this with my camaro (5.3 actually... but it has a few mods). So I think the camaro is probably underrated by 50 horsepower. Which would put it at about 325 horsepower. Thats what the factory rates the newer SS camaros with the LS1 engine at... They are most likely underrated as well.
[WEIGHT OF CAR IN KILOGRAMS/(HP*.09)]. I did a few tries with varying hp figures until I got 5.4 seconds 0-60 which it is quoted for on many websites. I have also done this with my camaro (5.3 actually... but it has a few mods). So I think the camaro is probably underrated by 50 horsepower. Which would put it at about 325 horsepower. Thats what the factory rates the newer SS camaros with the LS1 engine at... They are most likely underrated as well.
3/18/2005
How a Little Blind Sheep Got Some Glasses
Well I have some advice for all people in a relationship. DISCUSS WHAT YOU ARE FEELING! Even if it hurts. If you don't talk about something and ignore it, the problem just grows. And even after you have talked about it dont think it will just go away because you need to work for it. And if you are in a relationship remember that its just not you, and if you are going to make a important decision its nice if you include the other person, because it is a partnership after all.
3/14/2005
Love Hurts
I am aware that I am posting alot of song lyrics lately. They are the best mediums to expess my feelings though. I hope you read them. This is a song by Bon Jovi Called Love hurts:
Sometimes love can feel
Like the closest thing to heaven
Sometimes love can feel
Like you've been run over by a car
Yes it can it's the strangest thing I know
Make you feel warm when you feel cold
And if you down on happiness
You better get used to the taste of sadness
Cause love can sure hurt sometimes
[Chorus:]
Love hurts and it don't
Love don't always work
Love ain't all it seems
It feels good but it stings
Love hurts and it don't
Some people will tell you
It's the best thing for the heart
Yes they will what they fail to tell you
It can tear your life apart
But you know it's as sweet as a summer rain
But it can hit you like a train
Fill your heart with pain
Fill your heart with pain
Ooh everybody sing, everybody sing
[Chorus:]
Love hurts and it don't
Love don't always work
Love ain't all it seems
It feels good but it stings
Love hurts and it don't
[Bridge:]
When you know that you're alive
Cause you feel so much pain
When you feel you can't survive
But you make it anyway
When it feels too good to stop
But it hurts too much to say
Then you know, yes you know
You gotta know love hurts
It hurts and it don't
[Chorus:]
Love hurts and it don't
Love don't always work
Love ain't all it seems
It feels good but it stings
Love hurts and it don't
Sometimes love can feel
Like the closest thing to heaven
Sometimes love can feel
Like you've been run over by a car
Yes it can it's the strangest thing I know
Make you feel warm when you feel cold
And if you down on happiness
You better get used to the taste of sadness
Cause love can sure hurt sometimes
[Chorus:]
Love hurts and it don't
Love don't always work
Love ain't all it seems
It feels good but it stings
Love hurts and it don't
Some people will tell you
It's the best thing for the heart
Yes they will what they fail to tell you
It can tear your life apart
But you know it's as sweet as a summer rain
But it can hit you like a train
Fill your heart with pain
Fill your heart with pain
Ooh everybody sing, everybody sing
[Chorus:]
Love hurts and it don't
Love don't always work
Love ain't all it seems
It feels good but it stings
Love hurts and it don't
[Bridge:]
When you know that you're alive
Cause you feel so much pain
When you feel you can't survive
But you make it anyway
When it feels too good to stop
But it hurts too much to say
Then you know, yes you know
You gotta know love hurts
It hurts and it don't
[Chorus:]
Love hurts and it don't
Love don't always work
Love ain't all it seems
It feels good but it stings
Love hurts and it don't
Duh Again
I was thinking about going to check the weather on my computer, and see my watch is on upside down I am like gee THAT ISNT GOING TO TELL THE WEATHER IF ITS ON UPSIDE DOWN! Then I am like Duh! I mean time! Man Darci has rubbed off on me, in one day of being with her! HAHA.
What a Retard!
Lol I a ditzoid! (new word!) Gee going from intellectual(last post) to retarded skippy says they are opposites, but they both live in me quiet comfortably, sometimes even at the same time! (its just that lately I have been sad, so I havent been thinking about much but my situation, so havent been intellectual or stupid) Anyway, I went to lunch with Marcus and Mike at KFC, my camaro was sitting outside and I was admiring it, as usual hehe. Then I looked out the window to the right and seen another one just like mine. Im like wow! Two camaros that look exactly alike! Then Later I look at the other one again, and notice its exactly offset so it looks like a mirror image of mine. Im like thats odd. I look a little closer and discover it isnt a window its a mirror! Mike was sitting just so that I couldnt really tell, and it was a very clean mirror. I felt like such a retard because I told my friends that there was a nother camaro out there! I dont think they figured it out tho. HAHA.
Then another funny thing that happenend was that the booths are really small, and I sat with marcus, and we are both really big. Mike went to get seconds, and said you guys look like your gay sitting like that without me there. I was like oh thanks. Before that Marcus said since it was my birthday (a few days ago, but this was today)he would feed me, so he put stuffing on my spoon, and put it infront of my mouth. I shut it tight as tho it was pees. I said its to demeaning sorry buddy. Hes like gee I didnt have a problem with it. HAHA good times.
Then another funny thing that happenend was that the booths are really small, and I sat with marcus, and we are both really big. Mike went to get seconds, and said you guys look like your gay sitting like that without me there. I was like oh thanks. Before that Marcus said since it was my birthday (a few days ago, but this was today)he would feed me, so he put stuffing on my spoon, and put it infront of my mouth. I shut it tight as tho it was pees. I said its to demeaning sorry buddy. Hes like gee I didnt have a problem with it. HAHA good times.
Understanding Humanity
*NOTICE* This isnt preaching towards anyone specifically, its just my view on life.
I think I have come to understand humanity somewhat. I think underneath we are all the same. Really everyone just wants the same things I think. To survive, and get their needs met, and be satisfied. I take for instance Jon, I want to hate him, but I really don't because I think if I would have been put in his situation (had his parents, genes, experiences, etc) I could have been him. Its not even his fault, he just likes someone I happen to like (LOVE!) as well .
I think people just do "bad" things because they dont really understand what they are doing. They just are trying to meet their goals in a socially unacceptable way. So technically its not bad, its just ignorance. Most of the time. Or sometimes one is driven to vile deeds by necessity. The thing though that we do have control over is our choices. We can choose to do what we do, but if we have always been told we are no good then its hard. The choices you make will inevitably help you understand yourself. Unfortunatly pain is your medium of learning, because it teaches very well. Perhaps if we understood ourselves, we would learn more by logic then that of pain. Maybe all people need is some motivation to understand themselves and the will to change for the better. I am not sure where I am going with this, except that no one is really better then anyone else. Actually I take that back somewhat... at your current point of being you may be generally more "good" then another, but I think we all have the same potential to be "Good" if we have the chance to understand ourselves. Now I am not talking about relationships here, because thats a differen ballgame all together, just living a good life in general. Some famous philosopizer (hehe) said "know thyself." and that probably is one of the most important things we can do in life. For when we know ourselves we understand our behavoir, and then can change or stay the same.
I think I have come to understand humanity somewhat. I think underneath we are all the same. Really everyone just wants the same things I think. To survive, and get their needs met, and be satisfied. I take for instance Jon, I want to hate him, but I really don't because I think if I would have been put in his situation (had his parents, genes, experiences, etc) I could have been him. Its not even his fault, he just likes someone I happen to like (LOVE!) as well .
I think people just do "bad" things because they dont really understand what they are doing. They just are trying to meet their goals in a socially unacceptable way. So technically its not bad, its just ignorance. Most of the time. Or sometimes one is driven to vile deeds by necessity. The thing though that we do have control over is our choices. We can choose to do what we do, but if we have always been told we are no good then its hard. The choices you make will inevitably help you understand yourself. Unfortunatly pain is your medium of learning, because it teaches very well. Perhaps if we understood ourselves, we would learn more by logic then that of pain. Maybe all people need is some motivation to understand themselves and the will to change for the better. I am not sure where I am going with this, except that no one is really better then anyone else. Actually I take that back somewhat... at your current point of being you may be generally more "good" then another, but I think we all have the same potential to be "Good" if we have the chance to understand ourselves. Now I am not talking about relationships here, because thats a differen ballgame all together, just living a good life in general. Some famous philosopizer (hehe) said "know thyself." and that probably is one of the most important things we can do in life. For when we know ourselves we understand our behavoir, and then can change or stay the same.
3/12/2005
How Can I not Love You
Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love eachother
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
Wat we no longer long
Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long
Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
When you are gone
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love eachother
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
Wat we no longer long
Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long
Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
When you are gone
3/08/2005
Inanimate Objects
At work today the buzzer for the grilled onions went off, when I was really busy, and I couldnt get to it for a while, and it was becoming annoying, so when I finally turned it off I tell it to be quiet. Norm (my boss) hearing this says "Talking to the buzzer huh?" I reply: "Ya I must be going crazy I guess." Then he says: "Naw people talk to inanimate objects all the time like buzzers, timers, and sometimes even Skippy." I busted out laughing because Skippy sometimes seems like an imanimate object. He is so quiet, and sneeks up on you, and always has this bored look in his eyes. But sometimes he comes to life, like when he is poking people, or sneaking up on them, this mischevious fire lights up his eyes. Hes pretty cool tho. Anyway, I thought it was hilarious.
3/07/2005
Whatever words I say I will always Love you
I realize now, by stumbling upon a poem (I believe by divine providence), that I was going about this situation all wrong. Of course I was hurt, and dont blame myself for that. But I guess I needed to stop feeling like a victim. I was hurting, but I guess I need to stop making her feel sorry for me, I need to help my baby deal with this, even if it doesnt turn out that I am the one. I was struggling against reality, trying to bend it to my will, and stay with the one I love, but what she really needs is for me to hold on loosley, and let her decide for herself what is right. God has a plan, and I put faith in him, and her. If something is meant to be, then it will surely happen, and if it isnt, then I had an incredible time while it lasted, and am thankful for that.
If I could offer some advice, don't follow your head, or logic. Follow your heart, and if you do, then it will work out eventually. Do what you FEEL is best, NOT what your brain thinks is easiest. What will make you happiest, and is best for you. Even if that doesn't include me.
I am not letting go, or saying I dont want you. ON THE CONTRARY, NOTHING WOULD MAKE ME HAPPIER, then to be your one and only, and I wish it every day, but I want you to be happy. I promise that I will move mountains for you, and love you for always and forever. No matter what.
If I could offer some advice, don't follow your head, or logic. Follow your heart, and if you do, then it will work out eventually. Do what you FEEL is best, NOT what your brain thinks is easiest. What will make you happiest, and is best for you. Even if that doesn't include me.
I am not letting go, or saying I dont want you. ON THE CONTRARY, NOTHING WOULD MAKE ME HAPPIER, then to be your one and only, and I wish it every day, but I want you to be happy. I promise that I will move mountains for you, and love you for always and forever. No matter what.
Drag Racing isnt only for that track!
Well my friends friend who is now my friend, has a Turbo Charged Mazda MX-6, and he wanted to race my 94 Z28 camaro, becuz he hadnt ever raced anyone before so. So We decide to go out on town onto the two lane. Turns out we hit two stoplights and raced then. I won both times. We then turn, onto the two lane, well technically it was two lanes in town, so we got out of town. We both punched it at like 30, and he was keeping up pretty good until I got into third gear. So I won, but we were surprised he kept up so well. So then that night we were haning out with him and some other dudes, and Chris had to go to his house, and talk to his dad. A Super Charged Bonneville pulls up to us on main street. He gave the signal he wanted to race, and we totally smoke him, up to like 50 mph, then I turned on a side street, cause we were going somewhere else. Then after a while we leave to go to the hotel, and some sort of oldsmobile pulls up to us. The one dude in my car says hey i know that guy. We beat him as well. So 3 races 3 wins in one night. So apparently turbo charged 4 cyl, and supercharged v6 are no good against a stock V8. HAHA. Good stuff.
Fun Fun
So Tammy has this jeep cherokee, and I was following her home from school, and she hasnt really seen my new Z28 Camaro drive yet, so I decide to have a little fun. My car rides like a sports car (duh it is!), and the ride is bumpy. So I take it easy and let her be infront of me. Just waiting till we turn on the new smooth road. Then She turns, and I decide to show her what I can do. I commence to crank the wheel hard, and floor it. Since my car is rear wheel drive this creats much side ways skid like the dukes of hazard. I almost did a 180, and Tammy slows down obviously concerned, but I meant to do that. So she speeds up, and gets maybe to the triple digits, and I fly past her, I can imagine what she was saying. HEHHEHE. None of it being appropriate for anyone not under say... 30. HAHA. Happy cruising.
3/02/2005
Floundering
Today I had to takes a PEPS inventory for my one class. Basically I had to answer questions about my study habits. It was 100 questions but basically it was the same 10 questions almost exactly the same reapeated over and over, with barely different phrasing. I think thats what a lot of things in life are, but we don't relize it. We just make the same mistakes over and over with slightly different variations. I dunno what to do anymore. I don't know what I am doing really, I am just floating. Not in a good way either. Just going on my routines like they still matter to me. Pretending like life matters, when I have lost my definition, but sometimes when I am with my friends I forget, sort of. I looked at a famous picture "Foot prints in the sand." and it has a poem on it that says there are two sets of footprints in the sand, and one is the lord, but when their are problems there is only one set then, so the guy asks why did you leave me lord when I needed you most? HE replies by saying I didnt leave you, there is only one set because during those times I was carring you on my back. Thats how I feel right now, because I dont think I could walk on my own. Hopefully I will be able to walk on my own two feet again sometime soon.
2/28/2005
2/27/2005
It coulda been me
I hear you just got married
Had a month long honeymoon
And you were all smiles at the wedding
And you cried when you kissed the groom
I got no invitation
I guess the mailman didn't bring it to me
But I see the whole thing in slow motion
Every night as I try to sleep
My buddy John said you looked real pretty
And you acted like you were in love
He said the preacher asked for objections
And he thought about standing up
I told John he must've been crazy
'Cause you were just about to say I do
He just gave me a wink and said all he could think
Is it could've been me with you
It could have been me standing there with you
It could have been me and my dreams coming true
But those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see it could have been me
I don't guess I ever told you
That I went out and bought you a ring
I even carried it around in my pocket
Waiting to say the right thing
I pulled it out the other day
But the diamond had lost it's shine
Well I know how it feels 'cause my eyes grow dim
When I think you could've been mine
It could have been me standing there with you
It could have been me and my dreams coming true
But those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see it could have been me
Oh I called her just in time to be too late
You know those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see (it could've been me)
It could have been me standing there with you
It could have been me and my dreams coming true
But those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see it could have been me
It could have been me...
Had a month long honeymoon
And you were all smiles at the wedding
And you cried when you kissed the groom
I got no invitation
I guess the mailman didn't bring it to me
But I see the whole thing in slow motion
Every night as I try to sleep
My buddy John said you looked real pretty
And you acted like you were in love
He said the preacher asked for objections
And he thought about standing up
I told John he must've been crazy
'Cause you were just about to say I do
He just gave me a wink and said all he could think
Is it could've been me with you
It could have been me standing there with you
It could have been me and my dreams coming true
But those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see it could have been me
I don't guess I ever told you
That I went out and bought you a ring
I even carried it around in my pocket
Waiting to say the right thing
I pulled it out the other day
But the diamond had lost it's shine
Well I know how it feels 'cause my eyes grow dim
When I think you could've been mine
It could have been me standing there with you
It could have been me and my dreams coming true
But those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see it could have been me
Oh I called her just in time to be too late
You know those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see (it could've been me)
It could have been me standing there with you
It could have been me and my dreams coming true
But those dreams move on if you wait too long
It took me till now to see it could have been me
It could have been me...
2/24/2005
You might have to much Horsepower IF...
1. The emissions test guy starts laughing as soon as you pull onto the rollers.
2. You can't drive your car in the rain.
3. Your 'significant other' is afraid to drive your car.
4. You are afraid to drive your car.
5. You spend more on tires than on food.
6. You spend more on car insurance than on house payments.
7. You look in a state police car and see a picture of your car taped to the dash.
8. You throw your underwear in the garbage rather than the hamper.
9. You have to go to the track to buy gas.
10. Your mechanic names the new wing of his shop after you.
11. Jacques Villeneuve and Michael Schumacher wave you by.
12. You can make the Kessel Run in less than 12 parsecs.
13. You're tempted to wear your fire suit just to drive to the office.
14. Red signal lights shift to green as you're approaching then shift back to red as you're receding.
15. You arrive somewhere before you left.
16. You get pulled over for doing 155 in a 35 but the cops will let you go if "they can look under the hood."
17. You remove the $2000 stereo system to save 6 lb. of weight.
18. You are not allowed to run in the Silver State Challenge.
19. You get an anonymous phone call asking if you are interested in being in the Cannonball Run.
20. Your face looks like you are riding a NASA centrifuge when you drive the car.
22. You need parachute braking.
23. Your 'significant other' won't even ride in the car.
24. There is no possible way to "sneak out" of your neighborhood at 6 am.
25. Your pets scramble for their hiding spots as soon as the garage door is opened. (Pets, and all the neighbors...)
26. Family photos throughout the house are replaced with life-sized posters of your car.
27. Fuel is delivered to your home: in 55 gallon drums!
28. You carry earplugs in your car.(doesn't everybody???)
29. The only spot on the car which receives any regular cleaning is the windshield. (what else is there to clean???)
30. You find out that side mirrors don't hold up at speeds exceeding 145 mph.
31. Young children cling to their mommies in fear when you round the corner.
32. Birds fall out of their nests from the rumble of your 5" dual exhaust.
33. All the major Tire makers are sending you free slicks in hopes of endorsment deal.
34. The UPS guy took to taking Steroids so he could keep up with your shipments.
35. The Fed Ex guy had a nervous breakdown.
36. All the wildlife within a 800ft radius around your house got the HELLOUT.
37. The nearest Geological Seismic Surveying Station Operator knows your address by heart.
38. A booming voice greets potential passengers with, "That's right ....you paid for the whole seat but you'll only need the EDGE.
39. The earth slows in rotation when you hook up on your new slicks and head east.
40. You have to screw your slicks to the wheels.
41. Your exhaust pipes are larger in diameter than your driveline.
42. Your fuel pump flows enough to water a golf course.
43. Your compression's high enough you could run diesel fuel.
44. The sparks from your wheelie bars start grass fires on the side of the road.
45. Your engine idles at 2800 rpm.
46. You measure the fuel you use in "gallons per mile."
2. You can't drive your car in the rain.
3. Your 'significant other' is afraid to drive your car.
4. You are afraid to drive your car.
5. You spend more on tires than on food.
6. You spend more on car insurance than on house payments.
7. You look in a state police car and see a picture of your car taped to the dash.
8. You throw your underwear in the garbage rather than the hamper.
9. You have to go to the track to buy gas.
10. Your mechanic names the new wing of his shop after you.
11. Jacques Villeneuve and Michael Schumacher wave you by.
12. You can make the Kessel Run in less than 12 parsecs.
13. You're tempted to wear your fire suit just to drive to the office.
14. Red signal lights shift to green as you're approaching then shift back to red as you're receding.
15. You arrive somewhere before you left.
16. You get pulled over for doing 155 in a 35 but the cops will let you go if "they can look under the hood."
17. You remove the $2000 stereo system to save 6 lb. of weight.
18. You are not allowed to run in the Silver State Challenge.
19. You get an anonymous phone call asking if you are interested in being in the Cannonball Run.
20. Your face looks like you are riding a NASA centrifuge when you drive the car.
22. You need parachute braking.
23. Your 'significant other' won't even ride in the car.
24. There is no possible way to "sneak out" of your neighborhood at 6 am.
25. Your pets scramble for their hiding spots as soon as the garage door is opened. (Pets, and all the neighbors...)
26. Family photos throughout the house are replaced with life-sized posters of your car.
27. Fuel is delivered to your home: in 55 gallon drums!
28. You carry earplugs in your car.(doesn't everybody???)
29. The only spot on the car which receives any regular cleaning is the windshield. (what else is there to clean???)
30. You find out that side mirrors don't hold up at speeds exceeding 145 mph.
31. Young children cling to their mommies in fear when you round the corner.
32. Birds fall out of their nests from the rumble of your 5" dual exhaust.
33. All the major Tire makers are sending you free slicks in hopes of endorsment deal.
34. The UPS guy took to taking Steroids so he could keep up with your shipments.
35. The Fed Ex guy had a nervous breakdown.
36. All the wildlife within a 800ft radius around your house got the HELLOUT.
37. The nearest Geological Seismic Surveying Station Operator knows your address by heart.
38. A booming voice greets potential passengers with, "That's right ....you paid for the whole seat but you'll only need the EDGE.
39. The earth slows in rotation when you hook up on your new slicks and head east.
40. You have to screw your slicks to the wheels.
41. Your exhaust pipes are larger in diameter than your driveline.
42. Your fuel pump flows enough to water a golf course.
43. Your compression's high enough you could run diesel fuel.
44. The sparks from your wheelie bars start grass fires on the side of the road.
45. Your engine idles at 2800 rpm.
46. You measure the fuel you use in "gallons per mile."
Bill Gates's changes to the Auto Industry
At a recent computer expo (COMDEX), Bill Gates reportedly compared the computer industry with the auto industry and stated, "If GM had kept up with technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving $25.00 cars that got 1,000 miles to the gallon".
In response to Bill Gate's comments, General Motors issued a press release stating: If GM had developed technology like Microsoft, we would all be driving cars with the following characteristics:
1. For no reason whatsoever, your car would crash twice a day. For some reason you would simply accept this.
2. Every time they repainted the lines in the road, you would have to buy a new car.
3. Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason. You would have to pull over to the side of the road, close all of the windows, shut off the car, restart it, and reopen the windows before you could continue.
4. Occasionally, executing a maneuver such as a left turn would cause your car to shut down and refuse to restart, in which case you would have to reinstall the engine.
5. Apple would make a car that was powered by the sun, was reliable, five times as fast and twice as easy to drive - but would run on only five percent of the roads.
6. The oil, water temperature, and alternator warning lights would all be replaced by a single "This Car Has Performed An Illegal Operation" warning light.
7. The airbag system would ask "Are you sure?" before deploying.
8. Occasionally, for no reason whatsoever, your car would lock you out and refuse to let you in until you simultaneously lifted the door handle, turned the key and grabbed hold of the radio antenna.
9. Every time a new car was introduced car buyers would have to learn how to drive all over again because none of the controls would operate in the same manner as the old car.
10. You'd have to press the "Start" button to turn the engine off.
11. New seats would require everyone to have the same butt size.
12. We'd all have to switch to Microsoft Gas.
13. The U.S. government would get subsidies from an automaker - a first.
14. You would be constantly pressured to upgrade your car.
15. You could have only one person in the car at a time, unless you bought Car 95 or CarNT - but then you would have to buy more seats.
16. People would get excited about the new features of Microsoft cars, forgetting that the same features had been available from other carmakers for years.
In response to Bill Gate's comments, General Motors issued a press release stating: If GM had developed technology like Microsoft, we would all be driving cars with the following characteristics:
1. For no reason whatsoever, your car would crash twice a day. For some reason you would simply accept this.
2. Every time they repainted the lines in the road, you would have to buy a new car.
3. Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason. You would have to pull over to the side of the road, close all of the windows, shut off the car, restart it, and reopen the windows before you could continue.
4. Occasionally, executing a maneuver such as a left turn would cause your car to shut down and refuse to restart, in which case you would have to reinstall the engine.
5. Apple would make a car that was powered by the sun, was reliable, five times as fast and twice as easy to drive - but would run on only five percent of the roads.
6. The oil, water temperature, and alternator warning lights would all be replaced by a single "This Car Has Performed An Illegal Operation" warning light.
7. The airbag system would ask "Are you sure?" before deploying.
8. Occasionally, for no reason whatsoever, your car would lock you out and refuse to let you in until you simultaneously lifted the door handle, turned the key and grabbed hold of the radio antenna.
9. Every time a new car was introduced car buyers would have to learn how to drive all over again because none of the controls would operate in the same manner as the old car.
10. You'd have to press the "Start" button to turn the engine off.
11. New seats would require everyone to have the same butt size.
12. We'd all have to switch to Microsoft Gas.
13. The U.S. government would get subsidies from an automaker - a first.
14. You would be constantly pressured to upgrade your car.
15. You could have only one person in the car at a time, unless you bought Car 95 or CarNT - but then you would have to buy more seats.
16. People would get excited about the new features of Microsoft cars, forgetting that the same features had been available from other carmakers for years.
Where are the Aliens?
If there are 100 billion stars in our galaxy alone, then there are probably twice or three times as many planets. That is a staggering number and it makes you think, with that many planets possibly out there, it makes sense that there must be other civilizations, the numbers are just too great
So you think, with all those “Billions and Billions” of planets, there has to be life right? More than likely is my answer. But here’s the rub!
On our one little planet, which has created in excess of probably 50 billion different species of life, only one of those 50 billion has developed a complex language. In fact we’re using it right now. A complex language is more likely than not an imperative to creating a space faring civilization or at least a technological society and as far as we know, we’re it.
So where am I going with this?
Where I’m going is this: it’s just possible that we could be the most advanced race in our galaxy! Now there’s a scary thought right? But what if it’s true? Where does that leave us? Could we be the “Elders” that are mentioned in so many Science Fiction stories. Is the job of bringing intelligent life to the rest of the galaxy ours? Think about that for a moment. What a responsibility!
So you think, with all those “Billions and Billions” of planets, there has to be life right? More than likely is my answer. But here’s the rub!
On our one little planet, which has created in excess of probably 50 billion different species of life, only one of those 50 billion has developed a complex language. In fact we’re using it right now. A complex language is more likely than not an imperative to creating a space faring civilization or at least a technological society and as far as we know, we’re it.
So where am I going with this?
Where I’m going is this: it’s just possible that we could be the most advanced race in our galaxy! Now there’s a scary thought right? But what if it’s true? Where does that leave us? Could we be the “Elders” that are mentioned in so many Science Fiction stories. Is the job of bringing intelligent life to the rest of the galaxy ours? Think about that for a moment. What a responsibility!
2/18/2005
My Z28 VS a Neon SRT4
Dodge Neon SRT4 Stats:
2.4-liter turbocharged 16-valve double overhead camshaft (DOHC) engine
230 horsepower
250 lb-ft of torque
Zero to 60 in around 5.8 seconds
from http://www.dodge.com/srt-4/
So anyway I am driving around with my friend from Zkota, (we just got done looking at a 74 Firebird Formula that he might buy and restore) and on the way back there is this red Neon SRT4, and he is being kinda cocky behind us. So eventually we turn onto a main highway, and I take the far lane. We are kinda racing a bit here but not really. So we then pull up to a stop light, and its on. I rev my engine a little to encite him. The light turns green, and I ease off real slow, and so does he and he hits it, and so do I. I pull away from him like he is standing still, I am like two car lengths ahead of him, and am going almost 50 mph in a 35. We laughing at him and I think he is pissed. There is a hill so we slow down incase cops are up there. He floors it and is going like close to 65 in the 35 almost hits a car in his lane and barely pulls infront of me. HAHA. LOOZER! The pushrod V8 from the 60s beats a high technology sport compact once again! haha.
Today a white 95 mustang pulls up to me at a light. I look over, and think he wants to race, but unfortunatly not. I guess I wouldnt want to race a Z28 if I had a mustang either. So anyway happy burnouts my friends!
2.4-liter turbocharged 16-valve double overhead camshaft (DOHC) engine
230 horsepower
250 lb-ft of torque
Zero to 60 in around 5.8 seconds
from http://www.dodge.com/srt-4/
So anyway I am driving around with my friend from Zkota, (we just got done looking at a 74 Firebird Formula that he might buy and restore) and on the way back there is this red Neon SRT4, and he is being kinda cocky behind us. So eventually we turn onto a main highway, and I take the far lane. We are kinda racing a bit here but not really. So we then pull up to a stop light, and its on. I rev my engine a little to encite him. The light turns green, and I ease off real slow, and so does he and he hits it, and so do I. I pull away from him like he is standing still, I am like two car lengths ahead of him, and am going almost 50 mph in a 35. We laughing at him and I think he is pissed. There is a hill so we slow down incase cops are up there. He floors it and is going like close to 65 in the 35 almost hits a car in his lane and barely pulls infront of me. HAHA. LOOZER! The pushrod V8 from the 60s beats a high technology sport compact once again! haha.
Today a white 95 mustang pulls up to me at a light. I look over, and think he wants to race, but unfortunatly not. I guess I wouldnt want to race a Z28 if I had a mustang either. So anyway happy burnouts my friends!
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