Floundering

Today I had to takes a PEPS inventory for my one class. Basically I had to answer questions about my study habits. It was 100 questions but basically it was the same 10 questions almost exactly the same reapeated over and over, with barely different phrasing. I think thats what a lot of things in life are, but we don't relize it. We just make the same mistakes over and over with slightly different variations. I dunno what to do anymore. I don't know what I am doing really, I am just floating. Not in a good way either. Just going on my routines like they still matter to me. Pretending like life matters, when I have lost my definition, but sometimes when I am with my friends I forget, sort of. I looked at a famous picture "Foot prints in the sand." and it has a poem on it that says there are two sets of footprints in the sand, and one is the lord, but when their are problems there is only one set then, so the guy asks why did you leave me lord when I needed you most? HE replies by saying I didnt leave you, there is only one set because during those times I was carring you on my back. Thats how I feel right now, because I dont think I could walk on my own. Hopefully I will be able to walk on my own two feet again sometime soon.