That little voice....

First of yes I am crazy, but probably not need to be committed yet.. haha (up for debate at school probably) Anyway. There is a little voice in my head. No not like that I don't really hear voices. It's like the voice everyone has. The one that always tells you your not good enough. Your inner critic you know. Im to fat, I can't sing, I can't be myself I'm not good enough, it constantly puts you down, I am ugly, I can't do that. I can't follow my dreams, I just am not material for that. I can't do that job because whatever, ETC. Anyway everyone has this little nasty voice I think. See this voice and I used to have battles constantly. Not actuallybattles because he used to rule my life. It saps your self esteem, and just mires you down in a puddle of almost self loathing, and it don't let you livethe life you want to in some cases anyway. I used to be an extreme case. Let me tell you I used to be shy because of fear of you know pain, rejection, blah blah. Then when I didn't do what I longed to do I would put myself down. When you have no self esteem people tend to see that, and make it worse by being evil to you. However, this nasty little voice was slowly going away. SLOWLY. Painfully slow. Just last year finally I got some courage and daring, very little, but some. With that came self worth. (slowly and little, but progress) Then I got more when I became friends with Darci, but the nasty little voice is still there. However I didn't always listen. Then finally the veil was removed by a sqirrel who taught me 2 fly... I TALK BOUT SQIRRELS ALOT!!! I LOVE EM! and now im free, but anyhow I say that alot on my site, but its true. I hardly ever listen to that nasty little voice anymore. I feel I can do anything, and I am worth it. When you stop listening to that little demon, doors open, many, and you are truly happier, because you are not afraid to try new things, and take action in your life. So if you want to get rid of that nasty voice its a long road, but you can start to just listen to yourself. Listen to all the nasty little things you say that put urself down, and say no I am better then that. Don't be so harsh on yourself. Think of your friends when they are being imbeciles. They might say to you MAN I AM STUPID! But really you didn't think to much of it and didn't mind. People are really NOT as harsh as you think they are. Relax be yourself, and love urself. There are some bad people in the world yes, but I think the majority will respect you hopefully. If not I say turn away from them fore they are not who you want to be with. Choose your friends wisely. Popular people are alot of times shallow, and probably not people you wanna be with.(not all) Like the "IN" crowd. Create your own crowd. That are true to yourselves and you will find strength in your true friends. Kinda got side tracked from my main point but that one is good to so ya. IM OTTA HERE GOTTA CATCH SOME OF THOSE ELUSIVE ZZZZZZZZZZZZs. Squirrels steals my zzz, but i'd rather not sleep anyway cause I love chasing squirrels! HAHA!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~