You know... I think you rarely will ever see the total genuine person below the surface... We all have certain things we hide. Sometimes we will hide most of ourselves, and put on a front people see because we are insecure. Its only to protect ourselves. So that we don't get burned... even maybe to family. No one really seems to understand me. I am different. I have strange ideas. I don't think like most people. When I tell them what I think deep down, my ideas are met with hostility. They are instantly dismissed, and not even considered. I guess its hard to accept other views then your own. Therefore Its hard for me to show my true self. Sometimes I will reveal part of myself to someone, but then after this bit of trust just to test the waters I have to retract back so I don't get burned. I used to be shy, and it has been a very difficult and frustrating path coming to where I am today. The reason was because I was different. People hate different I guess. Maybe you just have to accept that people are going to burn you and you just have to give it all out to them. I dunno. There is only one person who does understand me. I have shown her everything. I have taken her into my confidence and revealed so much to her that no one else has ever seen. I trust her entirely. She is the only one. Not my friends not my family. Some things I can't hardly admit to myself, yet I can tell her. Tammy if there ever was anyone who could complete me it would be you. I mean how often do you ever find anyone who you can actually trust? I would give her everything. And then some. I don't do it because she gives me happiness and I simply want more. Its because she shows me so much love that I don't deserve, I feel she deserves it. I love you. Its something beyond love... Love really doesn't convey the emotion... its more then that... Its devotion and trust. Just whenever you have a problem or something goes wrong you would tell them cause they will listen. They care. Its something beyond words. Divine. Tammy I love you... Wholly and Totally. All I can say is Thank You.